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Fireworks at Jonker street... 

Notice that it's packed of people watching the glorious celebration~ 

Me, Yee Chin, Ee Ling and Mei Ping~ 

Soothing wind blew at Kelebang's beach~ haha... at 12:30... xiao~ 

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Today's Special: Trojan Horse (legend)
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Trojan Horse (legend), in Greek legend, a huge, hollow, wooden horse used by the attacking Greeks to gain entrance to the city of Troy, thus ending the Trojan War. Unable to capture the city after a siege of ten years, the Greeks resorted to stratagem. They sailed away and left the horse, filled with armed warriors, on the shore. Sinon, a Greek spy, persuaded the Trojans to take the horse into the city, convincing them that to do so would mysteriously make Troy invulnerable. That night Sinon let out the armed Greek troops; killing the guards, they opened the gates to the Greeks, and Troy was captured and burned.

Microsoft ® Encarta ® Reference Library 2003. © 1993-2002 Microsoft Corporation. All rights reserved.

Stories

"haha... too busy about the lab reports, assignments, mid-terms, works and school activities... hope I can cope with all these pressure accumulated resulted from laziness~"

Comment/s: I must overcome laziness... I must overcome laziness... I must overcome laziness... *aha... hallucinations...*

"And lazyness to blog too... notice I just cut and paste... Muahaha... Aha... feeling sleepy now... currently the time is 3am after a long marathon of doing assignments and lab reports..."

Comment/s: Actually the exact time I sleep is 5am because I accidently drank the rich pack nescafe at 1am. And then I tried to sleep but I just can't sleep. So just pretend to sleep and lying there not sure about what to do... until 6am.

"But the most serious part is to overcome with the lazyness of others because those works I've done will be 'processed' by my friends... haha... you know what that means~ lol..."

Comment/s: Am I saying the work shouldn't be copied? Aha... maybe sometimes I was too selfish and self-centred. I should think like this: Last time I copied people's works also, why not gives others an opportunity?

"My over-seriousness to do something somehow makes things worse like the reliability of others towards me became stronger... but there's nothing I can do... Aha... pressure again... *oo... checkmate..*"

Comment/s: Is this a trend or what? Or I'm too serious at last minutes yea? *The checkmate is suppose to mean the wrong deal with people or the fault I'm doing...

"Maybe everyone needs to depend on each other... *haha... again... my miniblog seems crowded with my message..."

Comment/s: "Maybe everyone needs to depend on each other..."... This argument is an excuse for others or just a plain fact? I'm not really sure about it. So let it be... There is smart people who likes to rely on others in their life. And there is dumb nerd who likes to be relied. Or I'm just straight forward about something?? Ah... confusion** @@ **

Sin

1.
"Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment. But you humans do not. You move to an area and you multiply and multiply until every natural resource is consumed and the only way you can survive is to spread to another area."

He leans forward.

"There is another organism on this planet that follows the same pattern. Do you know what it is? A virus."

He smiles.

"Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet. You are a plague. And we are... the cure."

2.
Architect: Hello, Neo.

Neo: Who are you?

Architect: I am the Architect. I created the Matrix. I've been waiting for you. You have many questions, and though the process has altered your consciousness, you remain irrevocably human. Ergo some of my answers you will understand, and some of them you will not. Concordantly, while your first question may be the most pertinent, you may or may not realize it is also the most irrelevant.

Neo: Why am I here?

Architect: Your life is the sum of a remainder of an unbalanced equation inherent to the programming of the Matrix. You are the eventuality of an anomaly, which, despite my sincerest efforts, I have been unable to eliminate from what is otherwise a harmony of mathematical precision. While it remains a burden assiduously avoided, it is not unexpected, and thus not beyond a measure of control. Which has led you, inexorably... here.

Neo: You haven't answered my question.

Architect: Quite right. Interesting. That was quicker than the others.

TV Neos: Others? How many others? What others? Answer my question!

Architect: The Matrix is older than you know. I prefer counting from the emergence of one integral anomaly to the emergence of the next, in which case this is the 6th version.

TV Neos: 5 `One's before me? 4 3 2 What are you talking about?

Neo: There are only two possible explanations, either no one told me, or no one knows.

Architect: Precisely. As you are undoubtedly gathering, the anomaly is systemic - creating fluctuations in even the most simplistic equations.

TV Neos: You can't control me! I'm gonna smash you to bits! I'll fuckin' kill you!

Neo: Choice. The problem is choice.

Architect: The first Matrix I designed was quite naturally perfect, it was a work of art - flawless, sublime. A triumph equalled only by its monumental failure. The inevitability of its doom is apparent to me now as a consequence of the imperfection inherent in every human being. Thus, I redesigned it based on your history to more accurately reflect the varying grotesqueries of your nature. However, I was again frustrated by failure. I have since come to understand that the answer eluded me because it required a lesser mind, or perhaps a mind less bound by the parameters of perfection. Thus the answer was stumbled upon by another - an intuitive program, initially created to investigate certain aspects of the human psyche. If I am the father of the matrix, she would undoubtedly be its mother.

Neo: The Oracle.

Architect: Please. As I was saying, she stumbled upon a solution whereby nearly 99% of all test subjects accepted the program, as long as they were given a choice, even if they were only aware of the choice at a near unconscious level. While this answer functioned, it was obviously fundamentally flawed, thus creating the otherwise contradictory systemic anomaly, that if left unchecked might threaten the system itself. Ergo those that refused the program, while a minority, if unchecked, would constitute an escalating probablility of disaster.

Neo: This is about Zion.

Architect: You are here because Zion is about to be destroyed - its every living inhabitant terminated, its entire existence eradicated.

Neo: Bullshit.

TV Neos: Bullshit!

Architect: Denial is the most predictable of all human responses, but rest assured, this will be the sixth time we have destroyed it, and we have become exceedingly efficient at it.

Architect: The function of the One is now to return to the Source, allowing a temporary dissemination of the code you carry, reinserting the prime program. After which, you will be required to select from the Matrix 23 individuals - 16 female, 7 male - to rebuild Zion. Failure to comply with this process will result in a cataclysmic system crash, killing everyone connected to the Matrix, which, coupled with the extermination of Zion, will ultimately result in the extinction of the entire human race.

Neo: You won't let it happen. You can't. You need human beings to survive.
Architect: There are levels of survival we are prepared to accept. However, the relevant issue is whether or not you are ready to accept the responsibility of the death of every human being on this world. It is interesting, reading your reactions. Your 5 predecessors were, by design, based on a similar predication - a contingent affirmation that was meant to create a profound attachment to the rest of your species, facilitating the function of the One. While the others experienced this in a very general way, your experience is far more specific - vis a vis love.

Neo: Trinity.

Architect: Apropos, she entered the Matrix to save your life, at the cost of her own.

Neo: No.

Architect: Which brings us at last to the moment of truth, wherein the fundamental flaw is ultimately expressed, and the anomaly revealed as both beginning and end. There are two doors. The door to your right leads to the Source, and the salvation of Zion. The door to your left leads back to the Matrix, to her and to the end of your species. As you adequately put, the problem is choice. But we already know what you are going to do, don't we? Already, I can see the chain reaction - the chemical precursors that signal the onset of an emotion, designed specifically to overwhelm logic and reason - an emotion that is already blinding you from the simple and obvious truth. She is going to die, and there is nothing you can do to stop it.

Architect: Hope. It is the quintessential human delusion, simultaneously the source of your greatest strength and your greatest weakness.

Neo: If I were you, I would hope that we don't meet again.

Architect: We won't.

QUOTES from The Matrix Trilogy

Soprano Choir - Pachelbel

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I wonder what is the type of this song. New age, like enya? Anyway, those are my favourites.

(Yesterday I was sick. Probably because that I was not enough sleep. And today's the mid-term for EPM1016. I'm not sure I can pass this paper or not because I just reviewed the first and second chapter only while abandoned chapter 3... *sigh* And two more lab report are needed to pass up this week...)

Busy Busy~ Haha... still in CNY mood...

Yesterday morning I'm having programming exam from 10 to 11am. But I didn't revise it the day before and just made a last minute recall, revising those important notes and jargons. At least the mid-term was objective so it'll be easier for me to make a guess. I thought confidently to myself. And lastly after the exam I found that there are actually many careless mistakes made during the exam. *sigh* But soon after that my friends said that why the 'records and array' was not included in the mid-term, because they've study hard for them. lol... *made a V in my mind*

I fled back home and have lunch in Rich Village and then went to Hui Shin's (CLS) house for Cultural Week's meeting, staying there until 4pm. (omg, I counldn't leave because I got work to do there and I've requested Yong Qin and Jinn Yin to go to tesco yesterday for the items for sandwich and buy some stuff for CNY) Finally the job there was done, I went back home and saw Kelvin, Yong Qin and Jinn Yin were preparing to go. They were sure waiting for a long time then. Suppose we should started at 2pm or something. *Really sorry for that*

(And in the afternoon I received a message of my friends Mei Ping and Ee Ling them asking me whether I wanted to view the lion dance and I refused them because I've agreed to go to tesco. I didn't send Meng Seong a reply because I'm extremely busy at that time... Sorry yea... )

Upon arriving at Tesco, we start to split and without wasting any more minutes, we grabbed for items we want. (Maybe it had been a long time already since I saw Kelvin and Jinn Yin and he didn't held any long conversation like before. Perhaps time have faded the link between us all as I also don't know what to talk about yesterday.)

After the shopping, we realized that we've bought a lot of stuffs like a box of 100plus, items for sandwich(breads, tunas, chicken sandwich(sliced) and tomato), yougurt, eggs, mineral water, and other stuff like dumbbell. (Haha... we bought too much carbonate drinks coz our CNY mood still exists) Wow, I almost shocked when I noticed that I used up almost rm100+ for yesterdays shopping. *Over budget again this month... Arghh...* At night we prepared the sandwich and eggs as our dinner. We were totally full after the meal. I forgot to mentioned that we've met Chin Haur and Yaa Thin in Tesco and Chin Haur invited us to gamble in the night. (Actually Kah Woh also asked me whether wanna go to Ah Pett's house to gamble since 15th is coming... That means the CNY is over...)

It was fun whole night watching Jinn Yin and Kin Seang quarrel each other over the loss and win and sure we were having a good time then... until 1:30am. Then the next morning(this morning), we went for Dim Sum in BB. It was tired after all.

*Oh gosh, I realized that I haven't finish my lab report and yea... tuesday got mid-term again... Oh no...*

Let's see what'll happen if two fella chatting 'english' while both of them were not enough sleep

*Warning - the text below contains explicit usage of aggressive words and also mostly were using chinese's style english~

Here is a part of the conversation:

x (12:01:42 AM): y leh
x (12:01:42 AM): wat mean
replicatormagic (12:02:04 AM): coz just now I'm saying that one use t
x (12:02:49 AM): so 56 b use Z or T
replicatormagic (12:02:58 AM): ok
x (12:03:49 AM): huh
x (12:03:49 AM): use Z or T
replicatormagic (12:04:21 AM): ur lec told to use z not meh?
x (12:04:41 AM): i mean u will use Z or T
replicatormagic (12:05:22 AM): use z kua
x (12:05:35 AM): aha
x (12:05:35 AM): haha
x (12:05:41 AM): kua ?
replicatormagic (12:06:02 AM): dunno er
replicatormagic (12:06:10 AM): suppose not that hard der
x (12:06:17 AM): then
x (12:06:23 AM): y have doubts now
x (12:06:28 AM): lolz
replicatormagic (12:06:32 AM): if see pop variance use normal if not use use t der if size small
replicatormagic (12:06:34 AM): that
replicatormagic (12:06:46 AM): that's my concept
x (12:07:52 AM): haha
x (12:07:52 AM): kkk
replicatormagic (12:08:18 AM): better to clear every doubt b4 exam
x (12:14:22 AM): yah
x (12:14:43 AM): if u know which 1 u will use and understand tell me as soon as possible
x (12:14:43 AM): thz
replicatormagic (12:26:39 AM): k
x (1:01:43 AM): weu
x (1:01:43 AM): wei
replicatormagic (1:01:53 AM): ar?
x (1:02:07 AM): y the last examlpe in notes didn't put the n
x (1:02:07 AM): y the last examlpe in notes didn't put the n
replicatormagic (1:03:20 AM): wat n?
x (1:04:32 AM): the (X-u)/sigma / n^1/2
replicatormagic (1:04:57 AM): both cancelled adi
x (1:05:28 AM): wat mean
x (1:05:36 AM): wat cancel wat
x (1:05:36 AM): how cancel
replicatormagic (1:05:42 AM): u mean question 24?
x (1:05:58 AM): eg 22
x (1:05:58 AM): in text
x (1:06:05 AM): notes
x (1:06:05 AM): eg 22
replicatormagic (1:06:27 AM): my last question is q 24
x (1:06:45 AM): wat Question 24
x (1:06:45 AM): example or Q
replicatormagic (1:06:51 AM): example
x (1:07:02 AM): u go to see Q 22
x (1:07:08 AM): then y use the variable Q
x (1:07:16 AM): Eg 22
x (1:07:24 AM): EXAMPLE 22
replicatormagic (1:07:54 AM): no variable q
replicatormagic (1:08:12 AM): it's E(o-e)2/e
x (1:08:58 AM): no
x (1:09:17 AM): I MEAN THE CALCULATIONS FOR THE BULB
x (1:09:17 AM): BULBS
x (1:09:23 AM): WITH 40 BULBS 1
x (1:09:29 AM): SEE IT ?????????/////
x (1:09:36 AM): U KNOW WHICH Q I MEAN
replicatormagic (1:09:42 AM): got Q?
x (1:09:57 AM): EXAMPLE LA
replicatormagic (1:10:20 AM): example
replicatormagic (1:10:26 AM): but no variable Q
replicatormagic (1:10:30 AM): x : then y use the variable Q Glen : Eg 22 Glen : EXAMPLE 22
x (1:10:39 AM): FASTER LA
x (1:10:39 AM): DIU
x (1:10:39 AM): U WANT TO TELL OR NOT
replicatormagic (1:10:55 AM): NO VARIABLE Q
x (1:11:06 AM): WAT THE FUCK U TALKING NOW
replicatormagic (1:11:09 AM): I DUNNO WAT's UR QUESTION
x (1:11:34 AM): U GO SEE UR LECTURE NOTES WITH THE EXAMPLE ON PAGE 17
x (1:11:34 AM): THE EXAMPLE 22
replicatormagic (1:11:42 AM): YES
x (1:12:04 AM): THEN Y DUN HAVE THE N BELOW THE SIGMA
replicatormagic (1:13:15 AM): NO NEEDS FOR N
replicatormagic (1:13:22 AM): LOOK FOR THE FORMULAR
x (1:13:38 AM): WHY
replicatormagic (1:13:46 AM): LOOK FOR THE FORMULAR
x (1:14:07 AM): WAT FORMULAR
x (1:14:20 AM): WAT FORMULA ?
replicatormagic (1:14:27 AM): SIGMA(O-E)2/E
x (1:14:42 AM): HELLO
x (1:16:00 AM): FUCK
replicatormagic (1:16:52 AM): WHICH PART?
replicatormagic (1:17:32 AM): don need to provoke me no use wan
x (1:17:47 AM): yaya
replicatormagic (1:18:39 AM): there is no n in the entire calculation
x (1:18:57 AM): dun disturb

That's what will happen if two of the people chatting under high blood pressure and temporary mental retarded condition. Actually x's my friend here but he only need about 2 hours to 4 hours for his sleeping time, I know him very well because if he started to talk nonsense in the class, that means he's not sleeping yesterday night... So it's the same in the messanger also, if there was any agreesive words that means he's not enough sleep again. *sigh* Actually I'm very blur and dizzy at that time also.

Currently I'm thinking to write a script for my game but still, I'm lack of english proficiency. Here are a part of it:

Introduction ::
Though the world of Trolexia have been totally annahilated during the war of Magnetic-Pulse-Shock-Tech (MPS-Tech) , yet the remain still searching for vault and place to hide, hiding in the world without sunlight, without the warmth of the nature, that it seem likely that they will be there forever...

Mutation ::
However, in the far east, there is a building called Duplex Scarcity still remain among the rubble, still in good shape, though no one would ever know that there is still have life exist in the building, at the vary corner of the underground city, within the ||Alternative-Space|| that would once a famous technology and was used in every sector of the Sevon Republic...

Spiritual Stone ::
No one had known that there was a legend that beholded the end of the world, the writing under a statue that warned the people about the MPS-Tech, that it would be the doom's day waiting ahead, no one would ever believed that... no one... except one, a old woman that appeared once before in the middle continent. Pityful people... pathetic... The words of the woman made everything come true. In her word, there is still have solution... that is to find the Spiritual Stone, a pure energy that can reverse the effect of the world...

Radiated underground ::
Long ago, people have made the nuclear energy as the ultimate source as it provides masses of power. Thus, they started to build the nuclear factory under the land, that to prevent the radiation from spilling out of the world. The people have not yet realize there was something created beneath it...

The past, before the war ::
It was a new world, a new future since the development of advanced technology. The world was virtually peace but there was actually conspiracy and cold-war among countries trying to obtain the piece of information and access these technology. Once obtained, they may construct their country and remodified their ruling system into a morality sufficient and AI enabled judgement engine which can enable their trade surplus to tenfold...

Haha, I'm not trying to impress but I found that there are actually many ways for writing. But for a beginner like me it's impossible to write in standard 'slang' or simple and good english. And also notice that it's boring to write like: He looked.... . His hand was covered with... And then He.... . Yea 'he's boring. I realize that the descriptions are important as well where how you can narrate something more lifely. However, in my engine course there is no english subject but just a bunch of mathematic related subjects like maths, electronics, instruments and programming. *sigh* I wonder how can I improve my standard under this condition... Hehe, I also feel like 'not mature' reading those children (yea, it's rather children than teenage) novel like Pendragon or Harry Potter. (but for HP it's more like teenage than children considering its way of thinking in those characters) Anyway, I wondered also whether to learn english is to copy others usage of english? Because last time Mrs Goh (IP tuition) told me that to always refer and take those good sentences and memorize them... and really, I feel like copy cat while my standard are remain the same.

Scorch the fire in my heart... and get ready for war(exam)~

Today, I watched Monster[Anime]. It talked about a doctor saved a life of a boy but the boy turned into mad serial killer(he was also before that). However the doctor was suspected to be the murderer. And then many things happened like the boy was actually under testing experiment of Germany's. It's more than a fiction rather than ordinary animes.(but actually most anime are extraordinary with their fluctuating plots) Favourite quote: 'Everyone do have "monster" exists in their heart.'

And then after a couple hours of boring classes and tutorials, I decided myself to get a haircut since it was rather long and messy. There isn't any people in the saloon, just a fella there was taking haircut while I was there. I really like the haircut style there as she always trim and cut it thin. And today was the first time I allowed her to cut my hair and shorten it... *sigh* It was a hard decision after all since I've kept my hair for about a month. As well as she finished her job, I looked into the mirror. *Oh, gosh* I didn't realise that she've cut that short to my hair... But nevermind... I've to change my image once in a while... If not I'm like always mess with my hair since it's long and yea... messy.

And also, thursday is mid-term test. I'm going to get a revision tonight. (Ar? Haven't started yet ar??? Oh, no...) I've to force myself to do things, if not I'll be ended up sitting in front of the monitor watching animes again. Probably I'll start my game design also. This time will be rpg + sokoban style. However, the first version haven't released yet so I've to start from sketch. The graphics, scripts, templates, engine, and events have to be decided on my own. It's easy to design, but it's hard to program it to be a game. *sigh* And I wondered why there isn't anyone who're interested in it... (Actually there are classic games which are fun to play, chech it out: Beneath a Steel Sky)

Talking about monster in my is lazyness and NATO-type. I wondered whether I can finish my job after mid-terms. lol...

A Letter to Myself...

Dear myself:

Hi, how're you? Still pretending to be busy everyday? Pretending that you're unique or smart everyday? Hehe, that's your style anyway. How's life in Melacca? I think you've get use to it since you've been here for almost 2 years. But I believe that Melacca is much more fun than Cyberjaya there which is way too 'high standard'.

19 and a half years... It's tough you know, yea, it's hard. Remember that when you're small you tend to cry, crying in house, crying at the school and everywhere. I know you always scared to be blamed by your parents since your parents care about you the most since you were small. They always cares about your everything everyday. That's why you're dull since you're small, you are lack of socialize and not really independant and reliable at all. Now I can see you're always haunted by your past, hiding your own secrets, escaping your nightmare... and you can hardly have a real and true friend, who can talk about everything... except me.

Then since you were in secondary, you changed so much until I could hardly recognise you. First of all, you grow up a lot. Remember that when you were in primary, you always stayed at the third one of the row as you were the third shortest. (if I'm not forgotten) Now you grow higher and higher. People always said you're good looking but I don't think so. Because you're so dull and lame. And you don't really know how to express yourself everytime people are joking or complement something. Is it that you're fake to yourself? And to me? Yea, you really grow up since secondary when you joined PBSM the big family. Of course you always made mistakes everytime and everywhere. I'm watching you all the time when you start to learn communication and socialize with people. Other people had already know how to handle every kind of situation while you just start at ABC... isn't that pathetic? However, you always move forward in your life to make every advancement of your skill and ability. That made you stronger and braver. I was always helping you by your side, you know? I always support you.

And yea, of course I wanted to help you, but you always act childish. Was it acting? Or you were faking your personality of your own? I know you very well. You also wanted to help others, but you scare you'll be hurt by others? People alway said that if you learn to love others and others will love you. But isn't that contradicting? Or you've closed your heart towards everything? Closed your true self?

I know you have a good ambition and dream. I'm the same too. But to achieve something you have to sacrifice something. Like the chinese saying: If you want something, you have to put away another thing. It's almost the same also that if you wanted to own a lot of money, maybe your personality will change, you'll be more realistic, you throw away your personality. I don't really want you to become like that, to become a cold-blooded and materialistic guy. But I believe, that you won't become like that, since you have a strong stand for yourself, a strong concept developed since secondary, and ambitious.

But there is something I don't like about you also, that's your view about something. You're pragmatic. You're too straight forward about anything until you've forgot something more important -- friendship and maintaining relationships. See you've lost the links of your hometown friends. You've totally forgotten them, but don't forget about me. 'Cause I'm your utmost precious property you owned.

And sometime also, it's hard to comprehend you, your feeling and your thinking. What are you thinking? Why are you thinking so hard about everything? Maybe you need a rest or vacation or something. I know you're acting confident but actually there are many question marks in your thinking about certainties.

You maybe helpless, but you still have me on your side... Remember me always... Dont' force yourself too much and take care. Hope you'll be getting physically strong... as well as mentally also.

Happy Valentine's Day.

By Morph/TY
Current Song: Longer in Love [ Busted ]

Back to Melacca... peacefully...

Yesterday I reached Melacca at 3.30pm. It was kind of tired journey, not enough sleep probably. Actually I was not really in the right frame of my mind yesterday after the event happened. I'll tell what happened yesterday...

I was on my way back from KL to Melacca. (I took the bus from KK to KL, and then from KL to Melacca. There was not much traffic and it's pretty early when I reached KL, about 1pm, and then went to Donkin' Donuts for some *obviously* donuts. And then continued my journey at 1:20pm from KL to Melacca). As soon as I reached Melacca Kotamas, I walked down the bus and saw the bus driver (this is what I'm going to talk about) was still sitting on the bus. He's kind of late 40's and really got something wrong with him. I was expecting him to open the carrier of the bus. He's like acting nothing happened as our eyes met *kind of furious I can say*. Thus I pointed to the place where the carrier is and tell *not really loud* him to open it. As soon as he know what to do and step down the car, he straight say to me that: "Awak BISU ke?". I was shock because of the insult and looked at him furiously. He was just like acting nothing happened and continued to open the carrier. At that momment my 'fun' *actually boring* journey back Melacca was spoiled instantly. (Don't know whether it's side-effect or not, when I went Jusco in the night and order the foods I was like 'tergagap' when talking to the malays. Yea, the driver is a Malay... again) So my fren who boarded the same bus with me told me to get the number plate to sue him. I actually got the number plate. it's NBD8915 and it's Tranational. If anyone who've met him, better be careful. He's kind of fat and got mustache. But I didn't do so. Perhaps it's my fault as well, coz' I didn't speak it loudly. (I frequently speak too gentle until my small aunt always say I'm talk like a girl... *ashamed*). But really at that time I was really expecting him to know what to do when I was pointing out there and watching him. Or maybe he (the pig) don't like people order him to do things. Just didn't know what's the type of person he is...

*then after that when in Jusco Mc'donald, my cousin told me that before reaching the Kotamas got a chinese fella told him to stop at Kotamas and also asked him why he took the route. He straight said: "You BODOH ke? Saya tahu mana saya mau PERGI. sekarang jalan itu traffic. BODOH!" And then I realized that I shouldn't talk to a pig.

2nd and 3rd day of chinese new year:
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2nd day of chinese new year, I went back to my old grandma house. She was like more older than before since grandpa's death, and also worked everyday of the chores. Kinda miss those days when I'm small playing in the old house. My mum and her brothers gambled in the evening and my mun won rm500+ that day, I was impressed by my mum's luck coz' last time she was not so lucky. Then in the night I went for the class gathering in front of Taman Bunga Raya... a small eating place there. But I feel that most 5sc3's or 5sc2's are more friendly. After a moment the gathering in the Safari restaurant ended *early* and join the gathering of our group here. And then went to YEng's house and play card game.

3rd day of chinese new year, when I woke up it was already 11.15am. Then Qin & Yin them fetched us out to friends' house. Having dinner at Qin's stall, and continued our trip. In the evening around 4pm, me and my friends went for another gathering of PBSM. But I didn't recognise the committee (hardly) because I've never see them before... just chatting with some other older seniors or juniors(younger seniors). *Actually in our term, seniors means those who left PBSM after form 5... but it's actually those who're older than us. At night I went out again with friend, went to KFC, and then friends home for cards game... *(Generally I'm playing card game all the time back in hometown... *smiled*)...

4th day -- back to Melacca... *sigh* so soon...

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Happy Chinese New Year~ First time in Cameron Highland~

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Cherry tomatoes. Delicious~ 

Various kind of cactus. 

My mum and dad. 

My father and me. 

Me in Cameron. 

Today morning, I was awaken by my mum, somehow I feel irritated and pretend not to respond her. Hehe... but actually I'm "lembap" type of person, so there is no difference when I'm pretend or not. Then she told me to prepare 'cause we've to go to Cameron Highland.

Without any preparation, nor mental preparation, I was pushed to wake up to bath and prepare anything. She should have told me earlier about this arrangement. But thinking of today I've nothing to do. It's good also for a trip, but have to be careful of the cars because there are many malays back to their hometown for raya'?'. Yea, it's true that today have many malays on my way there and back. It's not I discriminate them but I feel that they're lack of common sense or respond. There were some cars were driven slowly on the road. It's not kind of slow, but when my father (he drove us) want to take over the car in front, the car seemed to like not responding as he can move to right a bit so that my father can pass by. When my father finally passed him, *sigh* malays... It's not just one time but a couple of times and all were malays... They really don't have senses... *But I actually do know there are some who're considerate others, but I think I've not met one*

Not to spoil the fun up there in Cameron, this was actually the first time I've been to Cameron since I was born but actually there was nothing to be really excited at all... It was rather hot while sun is up there scorching, but the wind there was cold and fresh. The first place I reached there was a small strawberry plantation site with other plants like cactus and also other plants.(I didn't really recognise all those plants since they are many and types are vary from each other.) I just bought the cactus (hopefully will bring to Melacca), tiny cherry tomato(very delicious, 'habis' before the trip back.), strawberry and some plants.

After that we go further a bit into a place like a small town with many steam boat shops. All shops were bloomed with bussiness as there are lot of tourist because it's new year. Of course we don't eat the steamboat as it's hot. But actually the main reason is that we scared we don't have enough time. We just want to be there for half day only, it's just half day trip. Then we move up a bit to our destination: Strawberry Park. It's almost the same, I mean the plants, fruits and flowers, just the prices varied in different site. My mom's bargain with the shopkeeper was unsuccessful althought she've bought many items there. *sigh* But she(the shopkeeper) did tell us that the whether in January and February is rather hot compared to other season up there in Cameron. And then after that we also visit same other site, but not the butterfly farm, 'cause we're lacked of time there... Father got dinner with friend... and brother want to be home earlier... *sigh*

Lastly I've bought some boh tea there, hoping to give some to Melacca friends. This trip is rather a precious experience for me... actually.

*Ar... I'm hoping to buy another Pendragon story... continuous from the first one. This time there will have another dimension -- the Cloral, wishing to buy it when I'm in MPH Melacca...

Chinese New Year Eve

Kuala Kangsar is not a dumb town. Compared to other town, this place is full of green field and fresh air. (Somehow I feel that Melacca's air is 'polluted'. Every week I've to clean my house in Melacca which is full of dirt.) But now, in Kuala Kangsar, slowly there are more and more construction which makes it more and more like the concrete jungle. People want to earn money, thus this is unstoppable, irresistable.

*I also somehow think that these days is hot because of the sin of human, development and expansion brings demise to earth and everyone.* There are people also who're living in their own world themselve, there is 0% acceptance of thinking of other's opinions. They think they're the best, thus they makes their 'way'. Somehow I'm certain that people are realistic. They thought appearance is everything, they want perfection... in appearance. But appearance may deceive, like a good looking apple with rotten heart inside. People's heart is longed been eaten by sin, by 'perfection'. Some even worse, for example, they don't have good maintainance of relationship with friends, and they are living in the virtual world, their behaviour is completely different than the real them. They want to grab those thing that are not belongs to them and declares it as theirs. But in reality, they're losers...

Today is Chinese New Year eve, this feel same like other days... hot and boring... Most friends are going out to work, or else went to travel. I'm kinda boring. Just now my friend fetch me out, meeting some old friends, and buy some stuffs. They're almost the same, just still have gap in between because it's long I didn't see them. Hopefully today night's reunion is better than last year.

Home Sweet Home

After 6 hours straight of journey in the bus, I was feeling tired and somehow dazed. In home I've felt the warmth of being home especially parent because they will ask about your life and how's mine doing these two months. I'm not bored, but it seem like I'm not really know how to communicate nor express myself. Even in phone also, we *me and parents* were just talking or chatting those things in general only, nothing special, nothing good and nothing bad, just plain talk. I'd tried to cross the border of this situation but it was in vein. What's the wrong with these? It seemed nothing, but I'm feeling awkward.

Just now in car I've been watching the fantasy novel -- Pendragon. This is a book talking about a fourteen-year-old boy flipping through another dimension to save the world of denduron. I don't really like story, lame a bit compared to Harry Potter series. The story is like you-can-predict-what-happen-next type so it's weird for me to watch this novel. However, I've already spent about rm30 something for this book, how can I just keep it like that so easily. Thus I decided to finish it off in the long 6-hours bus journey. As I read on, I found it was somehow attracted me after I've read quarter of it. Perhaps because of its narrative style makes me stick to it. The english is fantastic, no twisted sentences, no complex phrases, just amazed by its good usage of different descriptive words. Through years I've been upgrading my english, either in writing and communication. The process is slow, but I know I'm gonna make it, I hope, that's why I have the enthusiastic to search for those materials related with it, especially novels and writings.

Now after being home, I'm planning and thinking for the next activity I'm going to do, hopefully not spoiled my precious chinese new year holiday. I'm trying to fully use it for things like Japanese Language and other stuff, except academic and no more electronics, that's what I'm going to do -- do the thing I like to do. And also, don't want to be a pig in the house again, eating, playing and sleeping all the day. That's also the resolution for this year... haha...

Philosophy... Concept... I transcended...

Kindness is a friend and also enemy. I am just want to be kind without intension of hurting others. However, people don't just look at this. Even thought you've done nothing, you're actually will makes people angry. There are people who likes to 'use' kind people and rely them in their rest of their life. This is not tactics, there is no border between beautiful and ugly. It's just what is the content in your heart, they will know one day. The feeling towards your friend is through your true heart, not to be acted. Don't just so straight forward that just girls, it's the matter of friends. i don't believe in one night stand, that just works for looking fella who just rely on their appearance. They have no self esteem, no self ego, no self concept. Just believe that, everything should be out in your truth heart and to be truthful. sometimes also have to defend yourself to some offence sometimes.

Personality is shaped from ways of your thinking, your ways of expressing yourself, your appearance, your ideas, your points of views towards everything. Without personality makes you nerd. So that's why there are always have invisible border between out-going people and people who likes to 'eat' book everyday.

When you fear something, you're actually not, you fear yourself. When you're happy, actually you're not, you're sad, you sad that you're losing something you do not. When you're contented, you never do, you just feel that you need more. You need more than you wished... it's always like that... Sometimes there are always something happened to stop you from proceeded in your life. It's Problem and Obstacle. Obstacle is meant to be solved, not to be skipped. You solved it you gained, that means you're more mature. But sometimes in the meantime, there are pressure exists when those obstacles accumulated in front of you. Isn't that obvious? Your greatest enemy is yourself. Be brave to stand for it.

In other words also, staying in this life is like staying in front of the tv show watching, you've no objection of any displeasure, you just can't actually, when you tried to search, actually when you search it and you've achieve it you feel like nothing, then after that you wait for nothing, waiting for demise actually, a life is just a cycle, a cycle that can never have return back, and you just can't like in the tv show pretending to be the hero, neither you can in a chance, you're not like in PC games which can be saved or loaded. Your memory and you is in oneself. It's just once...

To me, eternity is searched, not to be waited. Time pass by, and maybe, there will be no one recognise you. The world seem to be forgotten, and not warm anymore. What am doing here? Why am I here for? Who are responsible for this? maybe no one... What is my purpose of life? to search for eternity? Perhaps this is just a dream... If I awake, I'll be an super entity... Without pressure, without desperation, without agony... Just a memory of dream... Perhaps...

fact is, this is the wonderful life and you've earned it...

My braces installation preparation and installation's log up until now...

Let me summarize my orthodontics procedure and dates:

041002 First visit to the orthodontics of Mahkota Medical Center.
- Registered as a first time patient.
- Get check up and x-ray to determine whether which tooth to be extracted.
- I was informed that I need to extract 5 tooth in total -
two lower wisdom teeth,
two of my right teeth for blank for future braces,
and one irregular tooth case.
- so I need three three tooth surgery and two normal extraction.
041002 First wisdom tooth extraction (my left side third molar).
041019 Second wisdom tooth extraction (my right side third molar).
041102 Third tooth extraction (located at inner upper side - it's rather difficult).
041109 Fourth and fifth teeth extraction (my right side upper and lower).
041118 Installation of braces. (Muahaha... finally... )
041218 First visit for check up and tie up.
050129 Second check up, remove unaccurate-position's bracket and tie up
050312 Appointment for third check up and tie-up... scary...

CNYE photo uploaded~ Ee Ling's Birthday Pic uploaded~

Ee Ling's Birthday Photo
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Met a Choi San Ye at Jonker Street~ 

Meng Seong, Me, Ee Ling, Susan and Sui Ping.. 

Yeah~ 

The magician... with bloody hands~ 

CNYE's Photo
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Our Group: Chang Di Zhu... except the fella in the right... Ah Kiew... 

A PR I met there~ 

Man Shuang and Me... She Looks like 70'ties though~ All the Creative Looks' fault~ 

Weng Tuck, Chen Hong, Jinn Yin and Me~ 

Me, Kah Woh and Sing Yee~ Good Friends~ Yo~ 

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Oh, Give me a break~

It was a good and sunny morning today. However, I feel like I'm in agony... with piles of work waiting for me to complete. But the thing that makes me angry the most is my lab mate deceived me. I just can't stand it when he say that: Just write my name in the report which to be passed up. What's that suppose to mean? I complete the work and you get marks? *No Way* (But no choice also... who says he's in one group with me). Somehow also I feel like he's staying at home resting or revising those more important exam thing while I'm still in *war* with those works, works and works. I think I might become crazy because of the pressure. So that's why also I don't really have mood for CNY.

Yesterday just celebrate Ee Ling's birthday. Yesterday I've seen her angry like everyone didn't prepare celebration for her. And actually that's my fault also because the day before yesterday I've *mis* collected the money of the steamboat from her, so making her angry because she's suppose not to pay anything for her birthday... haha... And thus also makes Mei Ping suffer more... hehe... actually I'm blur blur that day so I'm really not in the right frame of my mind. Hopes she'll know that~

Hopes by this week I'll complete any tasks or works... OMG, still got many to go...