Happy new year 2006 ^___^ 

Dearest: Merry Christmas~

 
I'm acting a little strange recently. I can't describe the feeling of the chemical reaction inside me. I feel like I'm not me.

I hate to deal with people. Because I always like to be alone, thus that's why I can't improve myself. Sometimes I'm doing things wrong, but it becomes better in the end, and sometimes vice versa. I, don't know how to grab chances, that's why the things I should have earlier, is fading, just besides of me.

It's not that I feel like I'm not grabbing it, but I felt that I'm not suppose to grab it, and it's not belongs to mine, and cannot before I realise it, and understand it. I can't regret after I've understand it. While I'm too confortable for the things I have. I scare to change. I scare to turn something normal to bad.

I feel like want to find someone whom I can trust. I feel like want to find someone whom I can voice my heart. I feel like earning money. I fee like chasing dreams.

I'm just too greedy, that's why all couldn't be succeded. 

Merry christmas ^_^ For you, that you may never see this post.

Things...

1. Don't complains about life.
2. Say 'hi' to at least 1 stranger everyday.
3. Travel.
4. Find a partnership.
5. Learn to communicate in english. Normal english at least.
6. Memorize the script.
7. Own a greenhouse.
8. Learn to plant cherry tomatoes.
9. Collect my favourite genre of animes.
10.Don't hesitate about making every decisions.
11.Be braver.
12.Go shopping in Ginza.
13.Rear some kittens.
14.Study the gibberish languages, C++zzz...
15.Make money.
16.Work out everyday.
17.Increase weight the healthier way.
18.Design a game.
19.Get more sleep.
20.Cook the most delicious spaghetti.
21.Go to pub.
22.Learn to play piano.
23.Drink more water.
24.Finish the novels which stacked in my room.
25.Get more truthful friends.
26.Care for skin.
27.Design and become famous.
28.Program and become famous.
29.Go back hometown to stay with family.
30.Get my braces off.
31.Eat sushi.
32.Go to Hong Kong.
33.Expand my bandwidth.
34.Go swimming.
35.Buy a swatch watch.
36.Buy the Japanese clothing style t-shirt.
37.Go hiking.
38.Learn diving in Pulau Redang.
39.Get a car.
40.Get a life.
41.Play PS2 games in computer.
42.Go shopping in JJ.
43.Visit australia.
44.Make a list of goals for the next 5-10 years of my life and achieve them all.
45.Exercise regularly.
46.Live a simple life and take it day by day.
47.Take vitamins.
48.Spend more time chatting with family.
49.Be a better friend.
50.See an aurora borealis.
51.Learn to scrapbook.
52.Learn more about astronomy and using telescopes.
53.Be more fashionable.
54.Sleep under the stars.
55.Have better posture.
56.Add work out training set from 3 to 5.
57.Grow a vegetable garden.
58.Mend broken friendships.
59.Avoid certain people.
60.Build my dream house in my dream.
61.Learn to swim, in more effective way.
62.Learn butterfly style.
63.Try piggy jump.
64.Design my own computer.
65.Go to view the sunset.
66.Travel to kyoto.
67.Get some sleep.
68.Do hair treatment.
69.Be more enthusiastic.
70.Play basketball.