States of fear.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Military%E2%80%93industrial_complex
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Politico-media_complex

As you garners more control, as it may seemed; it is actually pushing the other way around. And thing falters quickly beyond grasp when you hold things too tightly, like sand, and loses over the state of equilibrium, creating imbalance over the entire system.

"We would think that the choices we make now is what would be best for the future, yet in the end we will need to adhere to circumstances when things went south. And we told ourselves, this was the path we chose, there's no turning back, next thing we know, we let regret defines us.

I was reluctant to plan for the future because I do not trust myself to live that long. I have let my youth slipped in exchange for the unnecessaries. And I felt it diminishing as we speak, yet I'm too far down the road to turn back. Time is tickling. I guess that's it.

My worldview is bleak, I know. But nobody's perfect."

-- Christopher Caine

You finds all hostility, gossips, and the never ending judgement from others,
but there is always a cube of sugar that stands in the middle of bitterness.

Be you, and only you.

Revisiting the darkest area in you.
Until you could balance and control it.

- Ask stupid question and you will get stupid answer, or none at all.
- Occam's razor theory, believe in something which looked most obvious to you. On the other hand, simplify things without over-complicating it..

当我们撕烂脸皮做人时，
什么屁朋友都不是。

"When I’ve plucked this rose, 
I can’t make it grow again; 
it will have no choice but to wither and die."

Perseverance as the way of life.

Quoted:
"When we had a long time relationship, we tends to find lacks of each other."
"Because you can't get what you want?"

這一刻你是一個最快樂的人
你看見你想看見的，你將它發生
因你，我像戴上玫瑰色的眼鏡
看見尋常不會有的奇異與歡愉
你美而不能思議。

Learn to hate, that's how you learn to love.

Where is our home?

说实话，我是一个很虚伪的人。不管是我放声大笑的时候还是愤怒异常的时候，其实那都只是我认为这个时候应该是这种情绪所做出来的举动罢了，在我心里永远都是波澜不惊的。心理学上说，我这是害怕跟人接触，害怕别人触及到自己最不愿意显示出来的地方。

Effectiveness

Quoted:

"If you adopt a pattern of life that focuses on golden eggs and neglects the goose, you will soon be without the asset that produces golden eggs. On the other hand, if you only take care of the goose with no aim toward the golden eggs, you soon won’t have the wherewithal to feed yourself or the goose.

Effectiveness lies in the balance : the balance between the production (or the desired results or in other terms : the golden eggs) and between the production capacity (the ability or asset that produces the golden eggs)."

(P-PC) Production vs Production Capability & Effectiveness defined.

没勇气就别去爱，你继续下去只是让人觉得你犯贱而已。

Let there be light

1:1 - In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.

1:2 - And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.

1:3 - And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.

1:4 - And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness.

(Genesis)

Dignity

Be erratic,
Be prosper.

Mindless rage everywhere,
Won't know whats hit next.

I'm not liable to sudden change.

Everything are talking about quality of life, well yea, they're just talking and talking. Did you see the way of their life improved significantly? Bullshit.

They're just a piece of mind, rattling with "What's new", "What's hot", "What's good" and "What's free", your average piece of shit. Environment did a good job on rationalize our desire, our future, and taking away what we really wanted, diverted into different area of interest, and producing more and more dumb people out there. WTH.

We have this strange world.
People are doing something, others started to follow, and more people started to come over, taking pride of what they knew, spreading them out or making road block everywhere.
OK, aunty and uncles, please move along the way la. U're making more and more people sick here!

Still! Where's quality of life? Bullshit.

この世に生きる者同士、
命の重さはお互い同じと思し召し、
何卒平等に平等に。

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　（眉山・さだまさし）

"Quoted..."

U are not being childish...U are just in the process of learning..As long as we are willing to put some effort,,one by one,,bit by bit,,no one can say u are childish...Because u understand urself more than other ppl understand you,,,Because u know u did learn from the past....A lot of ppl in this world love you.

dont let a destructive criticism bring you down,,because i know clearly that criticism is not worth your time to think of it...

Love, is where u can shine....Its where ur shines will be appreciated...

hope u are willing to read what i wrote for you...

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We're born to suffer, we're born to love, we're in one unity.

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霎那閒，我詛咒了每一個人，每一件事，和令我可恨的及不爽的東西，
時間流逝，過去不再，
看到了現在的倉傷和沒落，我又得到了什麽？

高興？失望？還是在笑著過去的我？