Finally, Final Exam.

These two weeks is my study week and exam week so I may not be able to online. Perhaps because of the internet connection problem so I can't do anything these two weeks.

Good luck for those who're taking exam...
Work hard for final, work hard for future...

*_*

MP3 songs = Life

*Friday* -> Busy and Blur~
Friday, working with the third assignment: intro to machine and presentation for computer assinment which I've completed last week. I've lost a book during the presentation though. Guess I've no luck that day. So that means the whole day I've been working for the two assignments in the library.

At night, I went to the swimming complex in town with some new-known friends. And again I was frustated after being called up by the guard there because I'm not wearing standard/proper swimming trunks. At night, Jinn Yin, Yong Qin and me was surprised by sudden visit of Chun Jin. We all talked about life and listened to some stpm news. I was tired that day and slept at around 2am. Yin said they all chatting until 4am.


*Saturday* -> Boring Dayz...
It was already 10am when I woke up. I just watched movie for whole day. I phoned to the Telekom service centre today and the fella said they will make report and send to the authorities here. I've no internet connection for almost 1 month already and I though I've to write a complain letter if there's still no action taken.

At night 1am (Actually this is Sunday), Yin said Jia Yi and his boyfriend will come over and Jia Yi will stay at our house. Then Seang called us to vgn for supper. Then we all stayed overnight playing cards (actually gamble). Then sunday morning we all went for breakfast and then went to sleep. I just slept 4 hours that day.


*Sunday* -> Yesterday, Hot Hot and Hot... It was good to be in the water...
And Sunday, I continued my fourth assignment work: electronics until 4pm and my friend called me again to swim because in Friday I wasn't swim at all because of the incident. Actually I forgot to bring the trunks that day. Then we all went there until 7pm and have dinner at town. Then Alan, Alvin and Chern Yang went to my house to get the graphs for the een assignment. I slept at 2am.


*Monday* -> Today, Busy Busy and Busy "referring" and comple the assignment...
I woke up very early today morning by a called from my friend saying that we have lab session today. I really hate the blurr part of me because I'm the type of person that easy to forget something. I quickly rushed there but they said the lab will be posponed to wednesday. Then I went back to finish the fourth assignment: electronics III.


Hope today I can start the fifth assignment: intro to machine 2...
Hope I can revise those ODE, PDE, Laplace and Fourier in engine math today...
Hope the weather is not hot today...
Hope I can go swimming...
Hope my internet connection will be back on line...
Hope everything is all right...


(Listen to Aquarius songs-> Be Happy, Bumble Bees, Cartoon Heroes, Turn Back Time, Candy Man... Song = reduce pressure; Song = learning excitation element)

MonoNoctorus 2005

我喜歡
作詞：娃娃　作曲：陶吉吉

我站著，我坐著，我走著，我盼望著，心跳已經飛了。
我知道，我想這個一個快樂的我，就在什麼地方。
在快速生活找到一些從容 在複雜世界擁有一點天真
我喜歡這樣的感覺，我只想要簡單的快樂
希望和你一起擁有，輕輕鬆鬆的享受
常常歡笑，我的老朋友。
嗚～～～耶
我看著每條街走在那大街的人他們在想什麼。
燦爛的陽光下解放了心中的我這一刻放輕鬆。
在快速生活找到一些從容
在複雜世界擁有一點天真
我喜歡這樣的感覺，我只想要簡單的快樂
希望和你一起擁有，輕輕鬆鬆的享受
我喜歡開心的感覺，給好心情留一個角落
想想過去，想想未來，回到最初的感動
常常歡笑，我的新朋友(我的好朋友)。
我喜歡這種感覺(喜歡開心的感覺)

Intro:
Maybe because of desires, I have my duty or responsibility to fulfill it, to achieve it and to advance beyond it.

Past:
This is my world and I am living in my own world of desires, of dream. Remember in first year in MMU I'm still uncertain with my future. I was 'floating' in uncertainties and I remembered that's called identity confusion in human deveopment course. After the passing days, I found that I was lack of confident in myself. (Thus I shall call that is my dark age in my life.)

Awakening:
I awoke, and realized what I want. Because if you're still wondering about this and that nothing will happen. That's why I see there are many people who're confident in themselves, they have proficient in communication skill. I know I can't envy much. I can't regret for what I've done last few years. I feel confident in my past and I love them.

Transcend:
Dreams and desires makes me move forward. I shouldn't hesitate or just wondering around and I knew that very well since last few years. I'm grabbing every single minutes and every seconds now to do everything that'll makes me move forward. Maybe last time I always think that, the road is uncertain for me and I should be careful for what I've done. So I hesitate for a while and thus my goal slowed down. Since then I've cleared for what I should do and I shall confident in my every decision. Now I knew that the road will be 'formed' when I walk on. The goal will be reached.

Imaginary world:
I believe, one single action will affect the entire result. Perhaps I'm virgo, thus I always think towards perfection. Maybe everything is not perfect itself but I'll try to shape it, to make it flawless. There are infinite uncertainties, infinite problems or predictions but there will be one solution to them. That's what form my personality, my perception and my imaginary world. That's what makes me me.

End:
Advance to infinite probablities, Elasticity to every obstacles, New formation to the new era and new world. If there's no such world... than... I shall create one...

LiviaTenda 1999
Blaster D'voida 2000
ReplicatorMagic Workshop 2001
DeepHeart 2002 | LiviaTenda 2002
Orev_Iagon Republic 2003
Morph 2004 | Transcend 2004
MonoNoctorus 2005
ExcelsiusDei 2006
MagicMorphing 2007
?? 2008
?? 2009
PandoraRevolution 2010?


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|09月18日|
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性格分析

充滿神秘感，9月18日出生的人非常重視隱私，常給人一種「神秘客」的感覺，但不知為什麼，他們總是從事與群眾有密切關係的工作。

他們擁有很隱密的個人世界，使得外人不是那麼容易進入；此外，他們或許會依賴他人，但並不會永遠依賴。由於富有決斷與出其不意的行事風格，他們很可能會即刻關上友誼與愛情的大門。因此，除非與他們交往的人都有心理準備，知道他們隨時有變心的一天，否則跟他們交往會是件很危險的事。


出生於這一天的人很有功成名就的本事，但是他們也很可能被一再的失敗與厄運給纏住。在他們的一生中，美麗是最大的主題。另外，他們對於各種形式的紛爭、暴力與激烈的競爭極為敏感，對於這些紛擾，他們只希望能躲得越遠越好。事實上，9月18日出生的人不擅於處理過多的壓力，儘管他們擁有顯眼與吸引人的外貌，上天卻不一定也賦予他們同樣程度的自信心。


愛情運

9月18日出生的幸運兒，本性善良，天真無邪的個性，是吸引異性的一大魅力。

彬彬有禮的處世態度，獲得許多人的仰慕。處女座的愛情關是堅貞不二，深情的付出，並希望和對方保持坦承的關係。對於性方面，則堅持單純，採深思熟慮的態度。而且希望婚姻是一種永恆的關係。不考慮短暫的激情或冒險，是一個非常顧家的人。也許會為了維持家庭和諧，而願意容忍一切。對於9月18日出生的人來說，生兒育女是一件非常重要、嚴肅的事情，或許觀念保守，不過卻能夠成為最稱職的父母。只是，由於事業心太重，很有可能連結婚生子的機會都沒有。即使發現談得來的對象，也會壓抑住想要交往的衝動。總之，好好把握良機，否則機會稍縱即逝。


金錢運

9月18日的幸運兒，可以算是財運亨通。即使本身經濟狀況並不富裕，也因親朋好友的幫助，而獲得轉機。

此外，熱愛工作、勤奮，兼具耐力及敏銳的直覺，也是一項優點。但是，強烈的性格往往逼得自己走投無路。憂鬱的傾向容易產生悲觀的想法。處女座的人理財有道，自己的荷包看得很緊。9月18日的壽星也不例外，對於未來總有一個周詳的計劃，多半都能安享天年。妥善的理財方式，讓處女座永遠不會坐吃山空。


事業運

處女座一向都是憑直覺做事。這種潛在的本能，能夠發揮高度的辦事效率。

此外，深思熟慮、沉穩的性格，往往贏得屬下的尊敬，獲得上司的器重。持久的耐性也是一大優點。唯一欠缺積極性和大膽嘗試冒險心。由於保持的人生觀相當保守，因此凡事只要順利進行就感到心滿意足，並且不做沒有把握的事。


健康運

9月18日出生的人很容易罹患慢性病，它的起因有時候是一樁嚴重的意外或手術。

他們比較脆弱的地帶包括腹腔、生殖器官、腎臟與腎上腺。當9月18日出生的人的健康出了問題時，他們會很快地適應這種情況，並且變得相當節制與清心寡慾，可是他們最好是以一種更為積極有效的方式去對抗病魔，而不只是消極地接受與配合。對於食物和性愛的慾望，不應該成為緊張時的紓解或發洩方式，不論是禁慾或縱慾，過與不及都不好。當身心失調時，9月18日出生的人特別會做出自我毀滅的舉動，因此建議他們遇到這種情形時，或許可以從針灸、脊椎指壓治療法與瑜珈當中得到一些幫助。


幸運數字

9月18日出生的人會受到數字9（1+8=9）與火星的影響。

當火星和水星（處女座的主宰行星）的影響力聯合在一起時，會賦予人敏捷的心智，卻不太有交際手腕，甚至可以說是笨拙。9月18日出生的人必須控制自己的脾氣，不要無理地拒絕他人，如果他們能駕馭住這種情緒上的衝動，以及善用火星與水星的正面特質，便能獲致良好的結果。數字9會使出生於這一天的人擁有很強的求生能力。


生日花

生日花：金鳳花
16世紀西班牙的大司教，聖湯姆士
自古以來，基督教就有將聖人與特定的花朵連結在一起的習慣，這因循於教會在紀念聖人時，常以盛開的花朵點綴祭壇所致！而在中世紀的天主教修道院內，更是有如園藝中心般種植各式各樣的花朵。久而久之，教會便將366天的聖人分別和不同的花朵合在一起，形成所謂的花曆。當時大部分的修道院都位於南歐地區，而南歐屬於地中海型氣候，極適合栽植花草。屬於菊科的金鳳花，就是被選來祭祀16世紀西班牙的大司教－聖湯姆士。他不僅是大司教，也是有名的慈善事業家。

花語：慈愛
金鳳花被用來獻給16世紀西班牙的大司教，及創立博愛主義的慈善事業家－聖湯姆士，因此它的花語是「慈愛」。凡是受到這花祝福而生的人，對人不會產生差別待遇，無論對誰都能夠傾注體貼之心。深受這種溫柔本性吸引的異性很多，然而在現在這個充滿誘惑的時代，自我主張過於薄弱，是容易被人利用的。



誕生石：藍寶石
藍寶石跟紅寶石是一對好搭檔。這兩種寶石的原石都是鋼玉石，根據原石中所含微量元素的組合不同，而有不同的顏色。


其中只有紅色的稱為紅寶石，其他顏色則統稱為藍寶石。如果寶石呈黃色，則椄偉斂_石，綠色就叫綠寶石。普通我們所謂的藍寶石，是指狹義的藍寶石。藍寶石中，最高級的是顏色像矢車菊的喀什米爾藍寶石。


藍寶石的傳說
藍寶石呈現出澄淨的天藍色，而天空是屬於神的居所，所以人們相信擁有這種寶石，神會賜予應有的智慧，所以它成了思考的象徵，基督教徒將摩西十戒刻在這種寶石上。傳說基督教唯一的神，將自己寶座上的藍寶石取下，投入混沌的宇宙，於是創造了世界。其後，神將藍寶石分成兩個，把戒律記在這上面。摩西看了這些文字後，改寫成十戒。因此，以羅馬教皇、大主教為首的神職人員、神祕家等，直到今天還是很珍愛藍寶石。


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Yo!!!... Work hard for Assignments~~~

Fire in the hole! Muahaha... I'm getting crazy adi~

Now the 4 assignments, 2 lab reports, 1 mid-term, activities, and final getting near makes my life packed more than like traffic jam.

Firstly, talking about 1st assignment. It's about computer programming. The computer kept telling me wrong values made me felt like wanna jump in the river. Then I changed again the ways of solution but I just can't really do it all in just one week time. Help, anybody? No one I can say. But I know who're a helping hands in the group to help me reduce pressure.

Second, Third and fourth assignment is all about electronics, machines and measurements. I've not yet viewed the assignment question so I don't really know how much time I'll take to finish them. Deadline is around 18 to 26 for all assignments.

Then for Engine Math mid-term, needless to say, it's the hardest among all PEMs (my friend told me) which includes the Laplace, Fourier, ODE and bla bla. And even worse that the lecturer teaching made me faint.

Usually my time is packed with activities so my time was always overlaps with other times for assignment or whatever.

Now the nightmare is final exam. I scare that I'll not have time for study and thus I'll lose in the final. Hope everything will be fine. Heiya!!! Have to work again now... And for now, network connection is stable...

They said, a friend means...

friend is fresh when it's new,
and they said,
boring when passes for a long time,
keep out from you when they found that you're not interesting,
and pretend not recognize you when you're not useful anymore.

Is that true?

MonoNoctorus

Prologue --- Intro
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Introduction ::
Though the world of Trolexia had been totally annihilated during the war of Magnetic-Pulse-Shock-Tech (MPS-Tech) , yet the remaining souls that survived the terror were still searching for vaults where they get to hide, seeking protection in the world which now lacks sunlight, a world which lack the warmth that used to roam in the air, the beauty that once decorated the nature , that it seem that they would likely be there forever...

Mutation ::
However, in the far east, there is a building by the name Duplex Scarcity, which, after the terrible disaster, still remained among the rubble, not much of damaged had been done to it. No one had yet to discover the existance of remaining living beings in the building, at the very corner of the underground city, within the ||Alternative-Space|| that was once a famous technological site that was of so much of influence in the major sectors of the Sevon Republic...

Spiritual Stone ::
No one had known that there was a legend that behold the end of the world, the sculptured secret writings under a statue that warned the people about the coming of the MPS-Tech, that there would be a doom's day waiting ahead, no one ever believed that... no one...except one......an old woman who had appeared once, in the middle continent. This old woman had uttered words that made everything come true. It certainly is of the world's utmost disapointment that the citizens would not believe in her. They did not realise that there were actually solutions that could have saved them... that is to seek the Spiritual Stone that possesses pure energies that is capable of reversing the effect of the after-war.

Radiated underground ::
Long ago, people have made nuclear energy as the ultimate source of power as it provides mass energy. Thus, they started building the nuclear factory underground beneath the land, this is to prevent the deadly radiactive waves from radiating throughout of the world. The people have not yet realize it had brought about the creation of something else....

The past, before the war ::
It was a new world full of hope with a new future since there were activities of modernization due to the development of advanced technology. The world was virtually in peace but no one knoew there was actually conspiracy and cold-war among countries with evil plans and spying activites of their many attempts to obtain pieces of information to gain access to these technology. Once obtained, they may reconstruct their country and remodify their ruling system into a morality insufficient and AI enabled judgement engine which will enable their trade surplus to tenfold...

http://procrastination.frens.net/index.php?p=71

CHAPTER 1 --- DEEPHEART
-----------------------

The world was breaking apart. It seemed like everything was falling like hell. The floor kept shaking and trembling. Sue was awakening, with her eyes open wide. But she can't scream as if she was numb and paralyzed.

Slampt! Suddenly, the door was opened abruptly as Sue's brother, Izzad rushed into the room. "Run, quickly!", he said when he reached her hand, grabbing her hand tightly and holding her up. At that time, Sue has a funny feeling in her mind and slowly collapse. "Sue! Sue! wake up!" He quickly got hold of her body, half crawling, both dragged towards the door.

Boom! Again, the house seemed to be couldn't hold any longer and started to collapse. Bricks and stones all fall towards them. Sue's brother quickly covered Sue with his body to protect her. She has not awaken yet though.

The night finally returned to silence and everything was fine and peace as the shake was totally ended...

In Sue's mind, she was thinking back about her and her brother's past. That is what people said, if you are in between alive and dead, a flashback of your life will return into your mind. Now, she can see her brother playing with her in the blank field, holding her hands and hugging her. It was all wonderful as her brother is all she has. Their parents died in the forest, that was what their grandma told then when she was alive. She was a great and a kind grandma for them although she was blind. She liked to tell Sue and her brother stories where they always found them very interesting. But one day finally came, the day where their grandma falled deep asleep, where they can't wake her up. They just cried and cried but no miracle happened.

Back to the scene where Sue and her brother was buried. "Am I alive?", Sue thought in her mind. Fear and darkness surrounded them. "Bro... brother...", she whispered with her remaining strength she has, slightly turning her head. "Brother! Brother!", she cried aloud seeing him behind her under a big rock, she can do nothing while tears started dripping down through her own face. Sue's brother was lying unconscious under the rubble. There was stain of blood covering Sue's cloth. She kept sobbing and crying for help but there was no answer. She can't breath as the piles of rubber totally covered them up for the oxygen.

"I shouldn't have asked you to bring me here... I shouldn't... Bro, please wake up... It was all my fault... Oh, brother, wake up...". She just cried and cried.

Suddenly, she can hear some noises outside the rubble and cry aloud, "Help me! I am here... I am here... help!". She can then see a piercing of moonlight cast to her eyes. She is now feel save and slowly, she is lying unconscious again.

There is a light, a light that she recognized and familiar with. Perhaps it was the light of reincarnation, light of reborn. She knew that maybe that was light of candles, it is like she is with her brother playing with some trick. They always did that, how to spark light out of their hands as her brother always teach her. Though they never knew that they're actually using some sort of magic.

She starts to open her eyes, and slowly, she saw some silhouettes of people. No, it was the villager and the mayor around her. They looks so serious that there is no sound around her. All of them remain speechless until the mayor starts to talk...... to be continued

CHAPTER 2 --- PROMETHEUS
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The world seemed to be blank and silent. The year is 2030 after a few decates of contented living. By the time, humanity still existed. Not long after that, conflict erupted in the middle sector of the world union between parts of New Asia Alliance (NAA) and west countries. NAA announced that they deserved better for what the western country have limited them. They possessed advanced technology growth as they have been surplus for many years especially Japan, China and Korea.

By some reasons, the republic of China started to commence war against the west. Just then, the world started to suffer more and more. Situation worsen when Japan's alliance used their death wave technology to intrude the central government which is controlled by AI system. It's a kind of computer virus transmitted through solid material to the network inside the mainframe. Then followed by the use of conventional nuclear weapon and nanotechnology bots by the west. May god have mercy on his own creation.

There seem to be people running anywhere to a place that was peace and silence. This was how the plague started. People kept hiding under the piles of rubber and the diseason kept spreading widely all over them and died. The world became unbalance and morality and humanity's standard deteriorated for a long period.

The war continued for three years and the world population was halved. The world became more and more like primitive age as the morality values kept falling to a very pathetic state, people slaughtering each other for food, robbery, prostitution, happened anywhere. It seemed like there was no standard at all in this world again where they were more like back to stone age.

But fortunately, there was some minor group still possessed the knowledge and culture of the world and tried to preserve and conserve them in a special designed network multipurpose mainframe. There is still hope for human to rise again. Just the time being and the future consequences.

In 2038, a serious convention meeting has been called upon among the most wise and clever person. An order to build an underground vault city has been passed down to the engineer, technicial and designer as the matter was getting more and more serious where the surface of earth have been poluted with nuclear waste and radiation, bacterial colonization and infinite nanotech killer bots, only the thing that protected them is the tachyon field which constructed to protect them from harm.


*arghh... don't blame me if there are mistakes... (there are actually many mistakes and I'm lazy to correct them).

Au lieu de s’évader，
ce pays consent à lui-même。
ainsi il est doux et extrême，
menacé et sauvé。
Il s’adonne avec ferveru，
à ce ciel qui l’inspire。
il excite son vent et attire，
par lui la plus neuve primeur，
de cette inédite。
lumière d’outre-mont：
l’horizon qui hésite，
lui arrive par bonds。

Life = Formulars?

Application from knowledge to our life is important. Somehow I found it interesting to relate all those really-non-related-matter and joined them together. Like a generator needs offset voltage to make it start, and same to us also. We needs courage, strength and be ready to make the first step to make everything happen.

Another example here, in practical, the capacitors will discharge but the rate of discharge will fall after a period because of the environment influence and the material itself. And for us, maybe when we're boring about something, we start to give up and give an excuse to ourself to rest. But this is not the best way. The best solution is to never waste every single minutes and moments. If we rest, we are actually giving ourself excuse and everything never can be done.

And also, we can create formular for ourselves. Yes, we do have formulars. For me, there are actually many formulars can be applicable throughout my experience. Like I've invented: First advancement theory, Second advancement theory, Double advancement theory, Resting Mind manipulation and so on and so on...

Hehe... sounds hard yea? I'll explain every single one. In summary, First advancement theory is to take the first step (I suppose everyone know right?). But it isn't easy for everyone to take the first step (I can say nobody will in my own observation). That is because there's no 'offset energy' to charge them and giving them courage. For me, my own generator is inside me, in my mind. And pushing myself away from any discouragement and no excuses.

Second Advancement theory is: when you've take the first step, there MUST be another step. And again 'No-excuse theory' is applicable. And for the first and second step, we should prepare everything for this advancement. Observation is make to make sure everything stable and to see the output also. If there's no second step, there's no further step to reach the goal.

Double Advancement theory is: set a few goals if you can, but don't be too greedy to take 10 or 11 goals because that'll never success. Aim for two or three goals, preparing as it's the most vital part, and target and charge. (Reminds me of the system of oscilloscope, which is aim first and then shoot the particle towards the pendeflour screen)

Resting Mind manipulation is: when you rest, try to think about your goal, try to make changes to make it more perfect, and think of another advancement and fit inside your arrangement of time.

Muahaha... I do have my formulars in my life, and there are quite a lot too. But the most important part is: If you didn't apply it, that's just wasting time.

Obstacles = challenge, accept challenge = get experience point, get experience point = giving one self more chance to success.

Wow~ What an awesome performance!

The day before yesterday I attended the talenttime 2005 mmu organized by sparc club. I went there because my friend said it was fantastic last year. But the problem is, there wasn't enough seat but luckily me and my friend manage to grab a seat in the middle row. The host called all of the people behind sit on the floor. *sigh* Yea... sit on the floor... Man~ they should've prepared more seat or otherwise don't sell that much tickets...

I was actually amazed by the competition itself. As the show began, it was rather boring to see all the rock bands coming out and gave a he*l out of them in the starting point. But the atmosphere was raising as the champion of last year's singing section voiced her 'Power of Love'. There was applauses every corner in the hall as the singer reached her soprano level. (Actually she was a very fat lady and actually she's angry in the end because she just got third price and when the photographer called her to take a photo she just went away).

Then the most exciting part that day is when it's time for Putri Nurul to present her song. (fact: my friend told me that she participated the miss mmu last time) And yea, she was pro' in singing and I could see everyone stood up and gave applause at every moment she reached the chorus part. (Argh... I forgot the name of the song already) It was the moment when the whole talenttime reached its pinnacle.

And then later followed by breakdance (That was in dancing section, there were actually three sections: singing, dancing and band) and it was perfect and flawless. Hehe... Actually I'd like to learn some.. but it's bad if I really 'break' one or two... But seriously for beginner who wants to learn breakdance they've to practice a lot and must do heat-up before doing dangerous part. There's info here about every movement: Breakdance... He*l yea~

In the ending of the show, it was sure that everyone stood again and gave applause to putri as she was great and excellent. And everyone was tired as it was 2am already... After the lucky draw of the portable tv, everyone left without continue to watch the ending show. It was performed by some students but i guessed everyone was really sleepy and annoyed by all the bands in the show... lol...

(But soon the next day after the talent time I worked hard to study all those electronics subjects but it was impossible to memorize all of them in just a day. I think I should've prepare it earlier. *sigh* but nvm.. there's still final exam.. I'm preparing and starting to charge forward and force and destroy all the obstacles... Muahaha...)