Now did I understand the struggle
that everyone has made over their life,
and you wouldn't understand if you weren't put under such condition or circumstance.

It's pushing you forward,
the frustration.
the hesitation and eagerness to explore further.

But you could not.
Again due to circumstances.

Let my mind be free.
And once again learn to love again.

May I?

There is one day, you did told me to upgrade and enhance my wisdom; instead of focusing of nonsense stuff. And the world isn't about these things. But another day, you're telling me to try on these again. So, is that the real you, or it supposed to be like that? Carry on and flow with the current?

Is there a limit towards any challenge you faced? How would you define it as a real challenge?

Yes, it is hard to set a certain threshold and follow the routine you planned repetitively, but without it the bar height will fall lower and lower and gradually follows the way you planned it, no expectation at all. While on the other hand, having a strict routine causes you to lose your enthusiasm as you're bounded by the rules you set, you feel challenged, limited by protocols and in repeating manner for each and every cycles before starting to get bored.

How to balance it? You define it.

Revisiting the darkest area in you.
Until you could balance and control it.

当我们撕烂脸皮做人时，
什么屁朋友都不是。

You made your first advancement, I retracted one step,
instead hoping you would keep moving on;
while I made a silent move towards you, and you were appalled..
and escaped into the place where you belong to.

这是自我理想而制造出来的潜意识幻觉而已。

I think of you

I haven't slept

I think I do

But I don't forget

My body moves

Goes where I will

But though I try my heart stays still

It never moves

Just won't be left

And so my mouth waters to be a fate

And you're always in my head

You're always in my head

You're always in my head

You're always in my head

You're always in my head

Always in my head

Always in my

This, I guess

Is to tell you you're choosing out from the rest

You got into my swirl of vortex, found nothing but pain.

Don't keel over now.

Quoted:
"When we had a long time relationship, we tends to find lacks of each other."
"Because you can't get what you want?"

Trapped in the limbo of life and death, where you have gotten use to the excruciating pain, and you felt nothing anymore.

Path

It is not without fear, without challenge, or without sacrifice that we follow this path towards unknown.
A big responsibility it is to be taken care of.
And a never-ending journey.

Gotta stop the agony.. abruptly..

Emo like hell... T.T

"我一直都在流浪 可我不曾見過海洋
我以為的遺忘 原來躺在妳手上
努力微笑堅強 寂寞築成一道圍牆 
也敵不過夜裡 最溫柔的月光"

I will not stay there forever doing nothing.
I will not listen to any negative thoughts.
And I don't care how you looked at me, and how you think of me.
I'm changing, gradually, despite of the reality.
Just believe me, because I can.

昙花一现的幸福，
渐渐地，满满地剥落，
我看见了黑暗的自己。

言行不一，狗屁不通。
绝不做吊儿郎当，
随波逐流的浪子。

思緒不停在徘徊著，
兜兜轉轉又回到了起點。

暫時歡迎你回來，
因爲我知道你又會在次奔跑出走的。

你找回自己了嗎？