|: wei i wana say 1st ya
|: if i hv 2 bek earlier 2 mlc n cook all d stuff
|: i dun wan touch report
|: i dun wan do all stuff la
|: dun wan be nice ppl anymore
|: =.=!!

wat's the meaning of this?
one word pushing everything away?

ok you can't do u can assign people to do,
you just confirm with it next time.

A leader is not just doing the work alone but is doing in group.

Ok, u're busy.
I'm busy too, and have to think of a lot of real solutions.

Summore I got people inside group asking of weird questions.
I'm getting crazy. What a colourful world.

And do I need to do the enquiries myself?
Why nobody take initiative?
I'm not the whole group.
I'm just part of the group.
I lead the group to success.
People can question my action.
I'm not god.

And tomorrow I have to see the lecturer again.
Stupid lecturer.
Anyway, thanks to people
who took initiative to question about my action.
thanks to people
who ask a lot of troubles that makes me learn.
I'm growing up.

Here is how we cares for others, I quoted it because I wanted to remind myself of it. Don't want to create my own world anymore...

"when we do or speak out something, it doesnt mean other ppl will have to accept even you think it is right. becoz everyone's perspective of right or wrong is different. so when we act and speak, we have to speak and act for the other person, not for ourselves. if we can do tat, then only we can tell ourselves, we are thinking on other people's behalf."

Expressing yourself... how do we express ourself? To laugh whenever you're happy, to shout whenever you're feeling to, to be sad when something bad happens. People just say I'm a robot, cause I don't have any feeling to anything. I'm selfish.

I going out sushi again with MeiPing, PuiPui and AiZhen in Sushi King JJ today, there are variety of topics we've discussed. We're kinda funny at that time cause we're snatching those plates like we've hungry for few days without food. PuiPui snatched those plates upon settling down at the seat, I was like |||... wow.. Hehe, seriously I can't spend more already, else I'll bankrupt. Crazy sushi king promotion, I'm one of the supporter.

Looking back then, we're having a lot of fun together. And sometimes there are miserable times, while most of the time I just ran away from problems, blaming myself why I couldn't make everything better. Lament, without much improvement, in the end, I'm still the same?

And yea, another thing, PuiPui asked whether how ppl looking at her at the first time, I made the point, but I wanted don't want to like make her unhappy and say something after then. I'm just wanted to cover up my point so it doesn't looks ugly? But indeed it looked ugly in the end.

So, making a point is just straight forward, like MeiPing, she just say: Yes, you are. And that solved the problem and makes people think that you're honest without much problem. It's just straight forward, nothing more.

Sure I can do it, try harder!

Sometimes the most attractive person turns out to be the most lame one in the end, or after some time. Just don't judge a book by its cover. Actually I'm browsing through some old photos and I discovered that.. Some of the people do change and become nicer but some others become the opposite.. People do change, I mean physically, but how do we know whether they're still same person after some time? Depends right?

Currently doing websites, noctorus.net, bought it for rm40, and also the 3g webspace. Arghh.. spent so much this month.

Terribly scared that I can't cope with stress anymore... I'm stucked.
Towards brighter me,
towards better me,
towards best me.
Lets pray... ... lolz (><)

Here's the pic MeiShan sent me,
we all took it last saturday.




I viewed back the pic I took before clubbing last saturday,
my make-up was terrible...
now I can only put the filtering with Photoshop..
arghhhh...
but it was ok coz i'm going clubbing, haha..

X-noPic-X

Yesterday valentine,
Me, PuiPui and her bf, MeiPing, and EeLing went out,
but actually it's a bad idea to go to sampan,
coz it's full of couples,
i was embarrassed,
and then we went to beach, how romantic ^^..
But the feel is not there..
haha.. dunno how to describe..
//lack of something..

Morning, overslept and skipped the first lecture class,
then after that i attended the cancelled class at 1pm,
i'm silly.. as usual.



So happie.. i bought myself the Sprix wax today..
and i was driving my bike outside,
it was terrible when i get back and cleaned my face,
whole patch of dust...



Going back tomorrow nite.
Happie Chinese New Year ^_^.

Happie Valentine's DayyyYY ^_^

for me, this is a day for friends to have fun
for me, this is a day for people to get a better life

not only for Couples, OK?

Really sorrie to hear that Arashi and Nick having quarrel n split
Hope everything is fine.

N i went for japanese generator again.. lolz

My japanese name is
長谷川 Hasegawa (long valley river) 翼 Tsubasa (wing).
Take your real japanese name generator! today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.

Just slacking... what am I going to do?
There are plenty of tasks around me,
while I'm searching for fun :)

I went for a hair cut at TeamHair today,
he commented I should:

• He suggest that I buy the dry wax,
• so that my hair won't look so flat on the back.
• I nid to use fingers to twist my hair evrytime =_=
• It's better to perm my hair.. (Huh? I can't accept..)
• The top of my hair is too short and looks thin.
• Same to my side.
• Put more wax when swimming, for protection!!??

+I K e e p O n D e s a t u r a t e T h e C o l o u r s . . .
W h i c h P e o p l e P o u r i n g I n t o M e . . . +*
H o p e l e s S s

I like the quote.
yes, I desaturates everything around me,
I purposely defame myself,
I asked myself, why I did that for?
I don't know,
maybe wanted to hide myself,
so that I took everything with me as a disguise..

Yea..

I went to Miki IV's friendster and found a Japanese name generator.
And found that.. my name is:
久我敬太郎(Keitaro Kuga)

while the name sensei gave me is 司(Tsukasa),
same name with the main character in //Hack Sign
Yay^_^

I guess I'm all right now,
I mean the injury of my leg and the dust allergy,
while my heart still left
incurable.

When you get the heart from my body and see through it,
you'll see vast emptyness.
I'm basically a walking dead.

People living with emotions,
I'm living without colour,
people tends to fill in colour,
while I desaturate them,
I keep on repeating this,
I keep on making mistakes,
I keep on makes everyone disappoint,
I made them sad.

I'm dead.

Met with an accident today..
A real accident..
\I was too fast.. yea, i admit. and pretty scared too..
and it was an embarrassing moment,
especially there are thousands of eyes looking at you.
But it's lucky that the international student didn't do anything on me..
but this was my worst day ever.

I had no ppl in helping me to deal with the accident..
I called KaiSiang, but he mumbled something which i can't hear
and then, no response..
I was too scared to call anyone right there after then,
thinking of me... really pathetic..
got to deal with myself,
am I too individualistic?
or I'm scared of troubling ppl?
thx TeckChee send me back just now when he saw me back home,
I was on my way back after brought my bike for a fix,
gotta take it tomorrow evening.

This bang makes me awake.

What choices do I have?

And then I called my parents,
of course they scolded me badly,
I knew it was my fault after all,
so I did listen all their shoutings.

Bad luck... and kinda stupid too.

Took this during EeLing's birthday celebration at HaVaNa Cafe~
Tomorrow post more... hehe... this is just ss photo..

Japanese Cultural Week Logo Design

Visit my deviant here: http://mononoctorus.deviantart.com

Guess I have to list down the designs I've to do
or else I'll forget all about them..
MUMOS movie making club - Logo, T-shirt, Booklet
JCW japanese cultural week - Logo, T-shirt, Stage, Booklet
CLS chinese language society 10th anniversary -
Logo, T-shirt, Booklet, Namecard
Debate Club + Voices - Logo, T-shirt
IEM Altera Event - Avatar, Booklet, Stage, Webpage, Walpaper

And yea, happie birthday to EeLing~
Later nite gotta celebrate it at HaWaNa near Xuan cafe there.
Just now went to sentral to buy the bus tickets
for PeiXian and YeongWei,
and then went to town survey something,
first went to see whether got english tuition centre,
den see whether the swimming pool maintainance end adi o not,
I wanted to swim long time ago..
last sem closed due to maintainance..

And now, it's time for gym adi..
argh.. my muscle sprains..
I've done too much at gym on monday adi..
today plan to do some light workout.

My design for today. @.@

Gotta hurry up, i'm having a lot of designs these few days...
Making too many blind promise adi...
Mumos, JCN, CLS10th, Debate, Altera events...
Die...

zzz...

Mei Ping: i very hugnry loh... temna me goeatloh...
:AhYiii:: very tired wo..
:AhYiii:: coz jus now go jj ah.
Mei Ping: aiyo... suak loh.. dun wan teman me go...
Mei Ping: lter i tell pui puyi.. then u know
:AhYiii:: hehe.. who got go?
Mei Ping: pui pui loh... me loh
Mei Ping: aizhen loh...
Mei Ping: so how?
Mei Ping: wan2 go not?
Mei Ping: we go near near yumcha then ok
:AhYiii:: erm.. i think kennot make it la..
:AhYiii:: coz too tired ah..
:AhYiii:: i ate the pill adi..
:AhYiii:: sleepy
:AhYiii:: coz of the dust allergy
Mei Ping: walau... im witing for u...
Mei Ping: tomolo u going the meeting?
:AhYiii:: meeting?
:AhYiii:: never heard of any meeting.. u mean the altera 1 rite?
Mei Ping: i sent a mail to inform u all guys dy
Mei Ping: yes....
:AhYiii:: ha? i'm the designer adi?
Mei Ping: nolah.. just wan 2 ask u some opinion.. may b u can help us wat
:AhYiii:: lolz.. i'll check it.. u inform me venue and time la
:AhYiii:: i mean sms

Weekends
Suppose it's a day of relaxation and enjoyment rite?
Why am I feeling boring the whole time?

Tomorrow the sch starts,
gotta prepare the materials needed and stuffs,
and yea, time table.

I'm doing the design for the T-shirts,
for MUMOS and JCN both events,
just can't get some ideas in such short time,
I'm doing it in a hurry,
that's why nothing gud coming out of my mind..

I wanted to improve my english!!..
Strong determination.. but.. lack of enthusiasm..
I mentioned this to bp,
while we were shopping at JJ today,
and mp got to acc her parents so that's why he was left out..
hehe..

Haizz.. english english... zzz...
And yea.. Japanese JLPT lvl 2... cont soon...

Everyone are back today, tomorrow sem break ends.. finally..

Pic of the day... ^_^

Arghh... I'm doing nothing for a few days now...

Yesterday
after 2 days of suffer
coz felt itchy whole over my body
den hurried for medical treatment at the clinic nearby
dust allergy
said the doctor..
feeling dizzy and sleepy after taking the pills
and sleep whole day

And today.. worse still
i flashed my router modem and it gave me error message
suddenly my mind went blank
(same result after flashing my graphic card last time,
rm250 bye bye)
after a moment, I went and see the manual
and there is 1 solution...
that was close..
den I reflash it using corrupted image mode..
or else, I got to pay extra RM165 again..
lucky me..

I really hate what I am doing recently
I hate what I had become
I hate myself..

Suicide?

Yea.., I think I'm lack of encouragement.
And it's hard to take care someone important to me.
Especially long distance relationship..