Just slacking... what am I going to do?
There are plenty of tasks around me,
while I'm searching for fun :)

I went for a hair cut at TeamHair today,
he commented I should:

• He suggest that I buy the dry wax,
• so that my hair won't look so flat on the back.
• I nid to use fingers to twist my hair evrytime =_=
• It's better to perm my hair.. (Huh? I can't accept..)
• The top of my hair is too short and looks thin.
• Same to my side.
• Put more wax when swimming, for protection!!??

+I K e e p O n D e s a t u r a t e T h e C o l o u r s . . .
W h i c h P e o p l e P o u r i n g I n t o M e . . . +*
H o p e l e s S s

I like the quote.
yes, I desaturates everything around me,
I purposely defame myself,
I asked myself, why I did that for?
I don't know,
maybe wanted to hide myself,
so that I took everything with me as a disguise..

Yea..

I went to Miki IV's friendster and found a Japanese name generator.
And found that.. my name is:
久我敬太郎(Keitaro Kuga)

while the name sensei gave me is 司(Tsukasa),
same name with the main character in //Hack Sign
Yay^_^

I guess I'm all right now,
I mean the injury of my leg and the dust allergy,
while my heart still left
incurable.

When you get the heart from my body and see through it,
you'll see vast emptyness.
I'm basically a walking dead.

People living with emotions,
I'm living without colour,
people tends to fill in colour,
while I desaturate them,
I keep on repeating this,
I keep on making mistakes,
I keep on makes everyone disappoint,
I made them sad.

I'm dead.

Met with an accident today..
A real accident..
\I was too fast.. yea, i admit. and pretty scared too..
and it was an embarrassing moment,
especially there are thousands of eyes looking at you.
But it's lucky that the international student didn't do anything on me..
but this was my worst day ever.

I had no ppl in helping me to deal with the accident..
I called KaiSiang, but he mumbled something which i can't hear
and then, no response..
I was too scared to call anyone right there after then,
thinking of me... really pathetic..
got to deal with myself,
am I too individualistic?
or I'm scared of troubling ppl?
thx TeckChee send me back just now when he saw me back home,
I was on my way back after brought my bike for a fix,
gotta take it tomorrow evening.

This bang makes me awake.

What choices do I have?

And then I called my parents,
of course they scolded me badly,
I knew it was my fault after all,
so I did listen all their shoutings.

Bad luck... and kinda stupid too.

Took this during EeLing's birthday celebration at HaVaNa Cafe~
Tomorrow post more... hehe... this is just ss photo..

Japanese Cultural Week Logo Design

Visit my deviant here: http://mononoctorus.deviantart.com

Guess I have to list down the designs I've to do
or else I'll forget all about them..
MUMOS movie making club - Logo, T-shirt, Booklet
JCW japanese cultural week - Logo, T-shirt, Stage, Booklet
CLS chinese language society 10th anniversary -
Logo, T-shirt, Booklet, Namecard
Debate Club + Voices - Logo, T-shirt
IEM Altera Event - Avatar, Booklet, Stage, Webpage, Walpaper

And yea, happie birthday to EeLing~
Later nite gotta celebrate it at HaWaNa near Xuan cafe there.
Just now went to sentral to buy the bus tickets
for PeiXian and YeongWei,
and then went to town survey something,
first went to see whether got english tuition centre,
den see whether the swimming pool maintainance end adi o not,
I wanted to swim long time ago..
last sem closed due to maintainance..

And now, it's time for gym adi..
argh.. my muscle sprains..
I've done too much at gym on monday adi..
today plan to do some light workout.

My design for today. @.@

Gotta hurry up, i'm having a lot of designs these few days...
Making too many blind promise adi...
Mumos, JCN, CLS10th, Debate, Altera events...
Die...

zzz...

Mei Ping: i very hugnry loh... temna me goeatloh...
:AhYiii:: very tired wo..
:AhYiii:: coz jus now go jj ah.
Mei Ping: aiyo... suak loh.. dun wan teman me go...
Mei Ping: lter i tell pui puyi.. then u know
:AhYiii:: hehe.. who got go?
Mei Ping: pui pui loh... me loh
Mei Ping: aizhen loh...
Mei Ping: so how?
Mei Ping: wan2 go not?
Mei Ping: we go near near yumcha then ok
:AhYiii:: erm.. i think kennot make it la..
:AhYiii:: coz too tired ah..
:AhYiii:: i ate the pill adi..
:AhYiii:: sleepy
:AhYiii:: coz of the dust allergy
Mei Ping: walau... im witing for u...
Mei Ping: tomolo u going the meeting?
:AhYiii:: meeting?
:AhYiii:: never heard of any meeting.. u mean the altera 1 rite?
Mei Ping: i sent a mail to inform u all guys dy
Mei Ping: yes....
:AhYiii:: ha? i'm the designer adi?
Mei Ping: nolah.. just wan 2 ask u some opinion.. may b u can help us wat
:AhYiii:: lolz.. i'll check it.. u inform me venue and time la
:AhYiii:: i mean sms

Weekends
Suppose it's a day of relaxation and enjoyment rite?
Why am I feeling boring the whole time?

Tomorrow the sch starts,
gotta prepare the materials needed and stuffs,
and yea, time table.

I'm doing the design for the T-shirts,
for MUMOS and JCN both events,
just can't get some ideas in such short time,
I'm doing it in a hurry,
that's why nothing gud coming out of my mind..

I wanted to improve my english!!..
Strong determination.. but.. lack of enthusiasm..
I mentioned this to bp,
while we were shopping at JJ today,
and mp got to acc her parents so that's why he was left out..
hehe..

Haizz.. english english... zzz...
And yea.. Japanese JLPT lvl 2... cont soon...

Everyone are back today, tomorrow sem break ends.. finally..

Pic of the day... ^_^

Arghh... I'm doing nothing for a few days now...

Yesterday
after 2 days of suffer
coz felt itchy whole over my body
den hurried for medical treatment at the clinic nearby
dust allergy
said the doctor..
feeling dizzy and sleepy after taking the pills
and sleep whole day

And today.. worse still
i flashed my router modem and it gave me error message
suddenly my mind went blank
(same result after flashing my graphic card last time,
rm250 bye bye)
after a moment, I went and see the manual
and there is 1 solution...
that was close..
den I reflash it using corrupted image mode..
or else, I got to pay extra RM165 again..
lucky me..

I really hate what I am doing recently
I hate what I had become
I hate myself..

Suicide?

Yea.., I think I'm lack of encouragement.
And it's hard to take care someone important to me.
Especially long distance relationship..

I overslept again.

Yesterday was a bad day,
going out wit some old frens,
they seemed a little bit..

outdated..

Thinking back of me, I should go to gym when i'm back on 24.
And yea, braces uninstallation on 26.
It'll be a relief. A real relief after 2 years suffer, it is worth it..

Now.. change topic..

Piggie and Piggie's bb having quarrel these few days,
wonder how they're going adi?
They are my idol le.. how come these things happened?
Piggie's bb didn't sms nor contact Piggie..
What happened?
Hope they'll be all right..

BB called me yesterday nite,
I felt pressure again.. am I?
Is it same case with Piggie?
I finally know that what I dislike the most now, and what can I do? I stil can do nothing..

I don't like sticky type of ppl
I don't like unintellectual ppl, without senses
I don't like ppl crying, rather, I want u to be indpndnt
I don't like you keep on pushing me
I don't like you thinking of nonsense
I don't like you always giving me choices,
while you left urself nothing to choose.

So.. do you understand?

It has been a while ..
since holiday started last week..
Erm.. what happened during my genting trip last week?
I guess nothing special..
It's hard to find something special on me,
because I'm a boring person..
a real boring person.
I need someone to cherish my life.
I need you.

Whatever.

Talking bout the genting trip,
I went there wit Ah bee, Ah guan, Hui Sian and their family,
and then met the mumos group up there too.
not surprising.
It was a bit boring..

And something happened up there,
Hui Sian fall sick (rather serious)
we all were worried about it,
and also scared that lulu won't feel happy
on her birthday..
And yea, Happie birthday to lulu..
Haha.. cute little sis..
21 yrs old lak..
(hope she won't sneek in here, if not..)

After the trip,
went straight to dear's house
staying there for 4 days straight.
finally we get understand about each other more.
but I feel stress..
I feel that's not I want..
but dear promise that will give me time to try

I don't know..

Let go? or continue?

But I'm very happy to know a lot of ppl..
MengLee(Wonderful little sis, talkative.. but kind.),
PuiShee(Comment a lot, but actually very caring),
XiaoRong(A bit silent, Likes drama and anime too^^),
Susan(Cute little princess, spent a lot=.=.. save loo..),
Andy(met a while..),
Sean(Cute cute),
and know since last time:
Kevin, Lawrence, Edwin and Jason.

I'll continue on my jouney... grab what I want..
Talk bout it next time ^_^

Work to do:

• Design: (1)Altera exhibition - MMUiem (2)MUMOS (3)Japanese Club (4)CLS 10th
• Japanese - Preparing for 2nd level JLPT
• Gym
• Academic - Aiming for 2nd upper next sem

Happiee Holidayzzz.
Happiee Holidayzzz.
Happiee Holidayzzz.

Cheer~~

Not funny..

I'm trully a copy-cat, copies other's ideas..
muahaha, guess piggiee dunno..
hope piggiee hav fun in the adventure.
a good beginning.

Me too.

Hope my dear can be like tat too..
*sigh* hoping too much??

mood right now?
a little bit blue.. a little happy..
dear called me today evening,
I was worry though,
coz didn't reply my sms,
den... tadaa~, miracle happen, * replied me, said * was sleeping.

Silly me.

Puipui and MeiPing them having BBQ today,
I not sure whether wanna go and help them,
coz i got another gang to join..
going JJ buy stuff for Genting tomorrow,
sorrie le.. *whisper*

Yesterday went Pure Bar and met chun lynn, Sze Ming and their gang,
wanted to avoid them though,
but can't, dunno why,
maybe feel a bit insecure wit my fren,
avoid my ugliness.

Stupid me.

Baka-yarou. nani mo deki nai no ka? watashi wa baka..

Serious?
I'm in good mood right now,
first entry to colour bloggie.

Cut my hair today coz it's very messy,
after the cut, taadaaa~
a new me again,
it'll be more surprise after the braces uninstallation on 27jan,
giv this surprise to my frens.

I stil not recover yet coz dar blame me last two days,
Dunno wanted to send sms o not.
But now the situation ok dy.

Yo-katta, da ne?
warau hazu da ka?
subete wakarimasen...

sad.. sad.. no mood right now...

M3lancholy003: Final decision

物以稀為貴。。這。。是稀嗎？|||
還是。。。被遺棄了？
尋找那一份空間，
自由的，
無盡的。。

天堂？。。還存在嗎？
想不到，你也是相信。
雖然我縹緲不定，瘦弱的身軀，
帶著存有一絲的溫熱，
被風雨打得破爛不堪了，
心往地心扎根得更堅固了，
是通往冷漠的世界扎根，
根深蒂固，
無法再挽回了。。

已經忘記什麽是理智了，抓狂地去尋找，摸索，
你眼神中仿佛沒有盡頭，就在那思緒中徘徊，
被抓進去了，緊緊地吸引著，
無法瞬間做出決定，
還是遠遠的，
祝福，
無限的夢想，
還是有我，
一路陪伴。

腦中湊合了零零碎碎的心情，無法再去想這麽多了，這就是我的拼圖。

M3lancholy002: Ei... Stupid...

都沒關係了吧，
什麽都不管我的事嗎？
我還管什麽？

自己什麽都抓摸不定，
還給自己什麽理由去肯定自己？
藉口嗎？

我不懂，
都是你強調的，
我沒有自我，
是你害的，
是我給我自己藉口。。

不想再這樣做人。。

昨天，看了你的blog，
還是一樣，沒更新，我在猜測，這幾天都在忙嗎？

很開心最近一些朋友找自己去玩，
沒有想到，原來其中的目的。。
我太多心了嗎？
懷疑太多了，讓自己壓力大。。
好歹給自己一個小小的信心吧。。

繼續加油。。
徒弟，你也要加油噢。。

M3lancholy001: always melancholy

Today, it's the same as before,
nothing to do,
nowhere to go,
...

I don't even recognise myself, anymore.
I'm shattered into pieces, without aim, without the meaning of life, anymore.
My heart,
No one will understand,
And I dun let anyone to understand what I feel,
Closing it.

I'm dying. Gradually.