My design for today. @.@

Gotta hurry up, i'm having a lot of designs these few days...
Making too many blind promise adi...
Mumos, JCN, CLS10th, Debate, Altera events...
Die...

zzz...

Mei Ping: i very hugnry loh... temna me goeatloh...
:AhYiii:: very tired wo..
:AhYiii:: coz jus now go jj ah.
Mei Ping: aiyo... suak loh.. dun wan teman me go...
Mei Ping: lter i tell pui puyi.. then u know
:AhYiii:: hehe.. who got go?
Mei Ping: pui pui loh... me loh
Mei Ping: aizhen loh...
Mei Ping: so how?
Mei Ping: wan2 go not?
Mei Ping: we go near near yumcha then ok
:AhYiii:: erm.. i think kennot make it la..
:AhYiii:: coz too tired ah..
:AhYiii:: i ate the pill adi..
:AhYiii:: sleepy
:AhYiii:: coz of the dust allergy
Mei Ping: walau... im witing for u...
Mei Ping: tomolo u going the meeting?
:AhYiii:: meeting?
:AhYiii:: never heard of any meeting.. u mean the altera 1 rite?
Mei Ping: i sent a mail to inform u all guys dy
Mei Ping: yes....
:AhYiii:: ha? i'm the designer adi?
Mei Ping: nolah.. just wan 2 ask u some opinion.. may b u can help us wat
:AhYiii:: lolz.. i'll check it.. u inform me venue and time la
:AhYiii:: i mean sms

Weekends
Suppose it's a day of relaxation and enjoyment rite?
Why am I feeling boring the whole time?

Tomorrow the sch starts,
gotta prepare the materials needed and stuffs,
and yea, time table.

I'm doing the design for the T-shirts,
for MUMOS and JCN both events,
just can't get some ideas in such short time,
I'm doing it in a hurry,
that's why nothing gud coming out of my mind..

I wanted to improve my english!!..
Strong determination.. but.. lack of enthusiasm..
I mentioned this to bp,
while we were shopping at JJ today,
and mp got to acc her parents so that's why he was left out..
hehe..

Haizz.. english english... zzz...
And yea.. Japanese JLPT lvl 2... cont soon...

Everyone are back today, tomorrow sem break ends.. finally..

Pic of the day... ^_^

Arghh... I'm doing nothing for a few days now...

Yesterday
after 2 days of suffer
coz felt itchy whole over my body
den hurried for medical treatment at the clinic nearby
dust allergy
said the doctor..
feeling dizzy and sleepy after taking the pills
and sleep whole day

And today.. worse still
i flashed my router modem and it gave me error message
suddenly my mind went blank
(same result after flashing my graphic card last time,
rm250 bye bye)
after a moment, I went and see the manual
and there is 1 solution...
that was close..
den I reflash it using corrupted image mode..
or else, I got to pay extra RM165 again..
lucky me..

I really hate what I am doing recently
I hate what I had become
I hate myself..

Suicide?

Yea.., I think I'm lack of encouragement.
And it's hard to take care someone important to me.
Especially long distance relationship..

I overslept again.

Yesterday was a bad day,
going out wit some old frens,
they seemed a little bit..

outdated..

Thinking back of me, I should go to gym when i'm back on 24.
And yea, braces uninstallation on 26.
It'll be a relief. A real relief after 2 years suffer, it is worth it..

Now.. change topic..

Piggie and Piggie's bb having quarrel these few days,
wonder how they're going adi?
They are my idol le.. how come these things happened?
Piggie's bb didn't sms nor contact Piggie..
What happened?
Hope they'll be all right..

BB called me yesterday nite,
I felt pressure again.. am I?
Is it same case with Piggie?
I finally know that what I dislike the most now, and what can I do? I stil can do nothing..

I don't like sticky type of ppl
I don't like unintellectual ppl, without senses
I don't like ppl crying, rather, I want u to be indpndnt
I don't like you keep on pushing me
I don't like you thinking of nonsense
I don't like you always giving me choices,
while you left urself nothing to choose.

So.. do you understand?

It has been a while ..
since holiday started last week..
Erm.. what happened during my genting trip last week?
I guess nothing special..
It's hard to find something special on me,
because I'm a boring person..
a real boring person.
I need someone to cherish my life.
I need you.

Whatever.

Talking bout the genting trip,
I went there wit Ah bee, Ah guan, Hui Sian and their family,
and then met the mumos group up there too.
not surprising.
It was a bit boring..

And something happened up there,
Hui Sian fall sick (rather serious)
we all were worried about it,
and also scared that lulu won't feel happy
on her birthday..
And yea, Happie birthday to lulu..
Haha.. cute little sis..
21 yrs old lak..
(hope she won't sneek in here, if not..)

After the trip,
went straight to dear's house
staying there for 4 days straight.
finally we get understand about each other more.
but I feel stress..
I feel that's not I want..
but dear promise that will give me time to try

I don't know..

Let go? or continue?

But I'm very happy to know a lot of ppl..
MengLee(Wonderful little sis, talkative.. but kind.),
PuiShee(Comment a lot, but actually very caring),
XiaoRong(A bit silent, Likes drama and anime too^^),
Susan(Cute little princess, spent a lot=.=.. save loo..),
Andy(met a while..),
Sean(Cute cute),
and know since last time:
Kevin, Lawrence, Edwin and Jason.

I'll continue on my jouney... grab what I want..
Talk bout it next time ^_^

Work to do:

• Design: (1)Altera exhibition - MMUiem (2)MUMOS (3)Japanese Club (4)CLS 10th
• Japanese - Preparing for 2nd level JLPT
• Gym
• Academic - Aiming for 2nd upper next sem

Happiee Holidayzzz.
Happiee Holidayzzz.
Happiee Holidayzzz.

Cheer~~

Not funny..

I'm trully a copy-cat, copies other's ideas..
muahaha, guess piggiee dunno..
hope piggiee hav fun in the adventure.
a good beginning.

Me too.

Hope my dear can be like tat too..
*sigh* hoping too much??

mood right now?
a little bit blue.. a little happy..
dear called me today evening,
I was worry though,
coz didn't reply my sms,
den... tadaa~, miracle happen, * replied me, said * was sleeping.

Silly me.

Puipui and MeiPing them having BBQ today,
I not sure whether wanna go and help them,
coz i got another gang to join..
going JJ buy stuff for Genting tomorrow,
sorrie le.. *whisper*

Yesterday went Pure Bar and met chun lynn, Sze Ming and their gang,
wanted to avoid them though,
but can't, dunno why,
maybe feel a bit insecure wit my fren,
avoid my ugliness.

Stupid me.

Baka-yarou. nani mo deki nai no ka? watashi wa baka..

Serious?
I'm in good mood right now,
first entry to colour bloggie.

Cut my hair today coz it's very messy,
after the cut, taadaaa~
a new me again,
it'll be more surprise after the braces uninstallation on 27jan,
giv this surprise to my frens.

I stil not recover yet coz dar blame me last two days,
Dunno wanted to send sms o not.
But now the situation ok dy.

Yo-katta, da ne?
warau hazu da ka?
subete wakarimasen...

sad.. sad.. no mood right now...

M3lancholy003: Final decision

物以稀為貴。。這。。是稀嗎？|||
還是。。。被遺棄了？
尋找那一份空間，
自由的，
無盡的。。

天堂？。。還存在嗎？
想不到，你也是相信。
雖然我縹緲不定，瘦弱的身軀，
帶著存有一絲的溫熱，
被風雨打得破爛不堪了，
心往地心扎根得更堅固了，
是通往冷漠的世界扎根，
根深蒂固，
無法再挽回了。。

已經忘記什麽是理智了，抓狂地去尋找，摸索，
你眼神中仿佛沒有盡頭，就在那思緒中徘徊，
被抓進去了，緊緊地吸引著，
無法瞬間做出決定，
還是遠遠的，
祝福，
無限的夢想，
還是有我，
一路陪伴。

腦中湊合了零零碎碎的心情，無法再去想這麽多了，這就是我的拼圖。

M3lancholy002: Ei... Stupid...

都沒關係了吧，
什麽都不管我的事嗎？
我還管什麽？

自己什麽都抓摸不定，
還給自己什麽理由去肯定自己？
藉口嗎？

我不懂，
都是你強調的，
我沒有自我，
是你害的，
是我給我自己藉口。。

不想再這樣做人。。

昨天，看了你的blog，
還是一樣，沒更新，我在猜測，這幾天都在忙嗎？

很開心最近一些朋友找自己去玩，
沒有想到，原來其中的目的。。
我太多心了嗎？
懷疑太多了，讓自己壓力大。。
好歹給自己一個小小的信心吧。。

繼續加油。。
徒弟，你也要加油噢。。

M3lancholy001: always melancholy

Today, it's the same as before,
nothing to do,
nowhere to go,
...

I don't even recognise myself, anymore.
I'm shattered into pieces, without aim, without the meaning of life, anymore.
My heart,
No one will understand,
And I dun let anyone to understand what I feel,
Closing it.

I'm dying. Gradually.

形容自己的经典30句


1、长的惊险.....有创意啊

2、你小时候被猪亲过吧?

3、你长的很爱国，很敬业，很有骨气！

4、长得真有创意，活得真有勇气！

5、你长的真tm后现代

6、你长的好象车祸现场

7、你长的外形不准比例没打好

8、你干嘛用屁股挡住脸啊！

9、我觉得世界上就只有两种人能吸引人，一种是特漂亮的一种就是你这样的

10、你的长相很提神的说!!

11、你需要回炉重造

12、他们怎么能管你叫猪呢？？这太不像话了！总不能人家长的像什么就叫人家什么吧！怎么能说你长得像猪呢？那是侮辱了猪。

13、靠，你TMD长得太好认了。

14、长的很科幻,长的很抽象!

15、见过丑的，没见过这么丑的。乍一看挺丑，仔细一看更丑！

16、长的很无辜，长的对不起人民对不起党。

17、你长的拖慢网速，你长的太耗内存

18、你光着身子追我两公里我回一次头都算我是流氓!

19、大哥，把你脸上的分辨率调低点好吗？

20、你长的违章!

21、国际脸孔世界通用

22、很惋惜的看着他说：“手术能整回来吗？“

23、你的长相突破了人类的想象...

24、你张的很野兽派嘛！！

25、你还没有进化完全，长的象人真的难为你了。

26.我想看着你说话，可你为什么把脸埋在你的屁股里？...哦？对不起，我不知道那是你的脸，那你的屁股哪儿去了？

27.我也不想打击你了。你去动物园看看有没有合适的工作适合你，你这样在街上乱跑很容易被警察射杀的。

28、MMD,我从没见过长的这么有考古价值的.

29、长的飞沙走石鬼斧神功.

30、长的丑不是你的错，可是出来吓人就是你的不对了

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I'm dead, for the moment.

I'm dead.

I'm dead. Pls do not send me message for the moment~
I'm dead. Pls take care of yourself~
I'm dead. I'm hurt~ (I do still have senses huh!?)
I'm dead. Pls consider me as you never know me before.
I'm dead. Everything is just your illusion.
I'm dead. Pls forget me.
I'm dead. Pls forgive me.
I'm dead. Pls do not send me sms.
I'm dead. Pls forget about the memories of us all together.
I'm dead. But earth remain spinning.
I'm dead. Pls take care of my dog, visky. Remember to buy him dogfood.
I'm dead. Pls be careful when I'm not around.
I'm dead. Pls keep ur promise not to say our secret to anyone.
I'm dead. I wanted to be buried at a place where full of grasses and flowers.
I'm dead. Pls dun let my parents sad.
I'm dead. Everything will be fine. Everything will return to normal.

I'm dead. I'll reborn.
I'm dead. I'll reborn.

Don't wait me... Pls forget me... Pls forgive me...
I do not exist.
I do not appear in your memories.
I am just a people you do not remember.

Reborn...

New me...

Reintroduce new me...

Once again...

=+:iiV@nn:+=

Preparing: New Me! ^

Am I prepared?
Am I scared?
I'm always me... Don't be affected by my change...
Wait for me, k?... I'll always be there for you...
Remember our promise... Remember what you've said to me...

New plan after sem break:
1. Revise english, revise japanese.
2. Do house cleaning.
3. Make website and port folio.
4. Backup DVDs.
5. Take off braces and replace with retainer.
6. Prepare for 13/6's Pulau Perhentian trip^_^.
7. Go gym.
8. Deal with landlord about the electricity problem.
9. Earm money $$.
10. Buy stuff for co-co activities, and also cls activities.

^_^|||

Braces

I guess I've been wearing braces for almost 2 years. Thinking back, it was not really as suffering as people said, or I've get use to it already, just some scary part in the beginning like extracting the wisdom teeth and three other teeth. And I'm really proud to announce that I'm going to take it off after sem break. ^_^

There have been some difficulties in the beginning actually and I'm scared that I can't cope with them sometimes. Part of them is that my speech become more blur. Um.. I know that sometimes I was really don't know how to express myself and thus this makes me worse. But fortunately all my friends here don't really care about it. I learnt who're more truthful to be with and who're lying all the times.

And thanks to it, I've become stronger and stronger. Pros and cons, I guess there are more pros rather than cons. It's not wasting money, it's to build up confidence and one's identity.

The process of these are called orthodontics, there will have no signboard in the hospital saying braces install or anything like that. Funny though, at first I also don't really know what the term means and just go to see the doctor in the dentistry department for check up. I was really scared at that time whether how I'm going to cope with these all. Fortunately I was really brave to take this step, though it was hard.

There are several minor component of the braces. It's not just using wires and tied them around your teeth but there are several technique to 'glue' it to your teeth. Or some other places they use more technologically advanced blue laser to 'glue' it. The components consist of parts like brackets which is glued to your teeth, the 'memory' metal which is made of stainless steel, bands which are to places in the molars (innermost teeth) to fix the metal wires inside together with the brackets. There are some other 'equipment' which are use to correct the teeth's position like archwire, elastic, expander etc etc.

Before the installing of braces, I've ought to have something called spacers in between my last molar and the second to make a gap for the band to fit in. And the installing process is just very easy, the orthodontist (for me it was Mrs Kok, ^_^ nice woman..) will place something looked like cigaratte (which is not cigaratte, it's actually some sort like cotton with cigaratte shape) inside your mouth to prevent your saliva and skins from disturbing the process. Then the orthodontist will start to install the bands in the molars, followed by the brackets on the correct position on the teeth. They use the dental grade cement and light to fix the brackets until harden completely. The process was of course fast for a experienced orthodontist like Mrs Kok. And then she took the metal wires and affix it with elastics, brackets ligature, and bands. On the first day, the wires looked like zig zag, but after a few weeks, my teeth started to move around according to the wires original shape because the wires they used were 'memory' type, so it'll remember its original shape when it reach the human temperature.

And now, tada~, what I have now is more confidence, and more smile ^_^.

Just wanna to encourage (or push) more people to do orthodontics... wakaka~ (and yea, I saw people said from internet that almost all people from western country had done this before~)

^...^ <- smile like this is actually a little bit suffering
^><^ <- so I've to smile like this
^_^ <- after orthodontics, more confident ^_^ Banzai~ Braces~ ^_^ celebrating 2nd anniversary of my braces ^_^ and going to 'uninstall' soon ^_^ Yay ^_^

=.=|||

Boring Sem Break... ZZZ...

*sigh* *sigh* *sigh* o_o||| Semester break have already started and I'm very boring staying at hometown. Everyday are just the same: eat, read, sleep, or eat, sleep, eat, sleep. But fortunately I've planned something to do this few weeks, at least I'll not bored to death. Ahh.. actually it's a relief that exam has over, last few weeks I had the most suffering week ever.

Who to blame... of course that's me.. hehe.. and yea... long time no blogging already =p After joining cls, I feel that I'm growing more and more, I've learn more things and the art of life. Being one of this family is great though. I had a great time together with all the quan wu friends. Kinda miss them all... ^_^ (feel kinda girlish in this sentence...)

It had been a long time since I've read some novel that could touch my heart. That feeling is somewhat sad and that feeling remained in my brain for next few weeks. I almost cried because of that. Amazingly I found some similarity or situations between the story and me. If not I'll not be that crazy until reading every part and pieces of it from the net, while I'm still having exam next few days.. *.* Guess my exam's result will be affected by that I think. I knew that is fiction, but yet I'm fascinated by its perfection, its flawless plot and events. And I'm really really down after that...

Sad though, these few days there is another thing popped in my mind. (*guess being boring in home will bring some negative effect including thinking of something negatively... =.=) The thing I mention just now is that I'm denying my past. I don't even greet my old friend, although not really close, yet pretending not to see them. I even think that my past is a failure. And I'm a failure, a defective child. And no one will guide me in my road but there is only me.

And not only this, I'm getting more and more individualistic, because I always think that I can do things more faster if I'm alone, and things will be better. But I forgot something that's even more precious... Hehe.. I guess it's hard for me to understand myself, not to say other people... So basically, I'm really a weirdo, even I don't know what I wanted to do. But sometimes those uncertainties will suddenly dissappeared when I mix with some friends in Quan Wu, I knew I'm born to have fun and take care of everyone. That's ideally.. hehe.. in realistic, no ^_^|||.

But guess it's time for me to change! HooHei CHANGE! Wakakaka~~~

^_^ Basically I'm a ghost, or maybe someday, I'll dissappeared in this world, while having no one notice about my existance. I'll dissappear... someday...

zzz... I wanted to go to Taiwan~
zzz... I wanted to go to Hong Kong~ -O-
Anyone? =P

Good Charlotte: My Bloody Valentine

"My Bloody Valentine"

Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life


I ripped out
His throat
And called you on the telephone
To take off
My disguise
Just in time to hear you cry when you...


You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
One last time


Singin'...


Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life
I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight


There was
Police and
Flashing lights
The rain came down so hard that night and the
Headlines read
A lover died
No tell-tale heart was left to find when you...


You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
One last time


Singin'...


Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life
I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight


Tonight


He dropped you off, I followed him home
Then I, I stood outside his bedroom window
Standing over him, he begged me not to do
What I knew I had to do cause I'm so in love with you


Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life
I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight
Tonight