2010

... I forgot when did my grandpa passed away ||| ...
... April - sad, did not get promoted ...
... Jun - Nov -> work work work ...
... Jul - South Korea trip ...
... Aug - HK trip ...
... Oct - Fukuoka business trip ...
... Nov - ? ...
... Dec - ? ...

Time skipping in front of me.. as if like the black and white movie.. without audio.. presented in front of me, sequentially..

Things always started off with conflict.. quarrel.. and then, followed by acceptance, understanding and correction. Sometimes we did realize the mistake we made.. And just sometimes.. it is hard to give in and admit our fault..

Life!

Struggle... struggle and struggle... for what?!

I'm waiting for the cheese to come :D Muahaha...

Liven Up!

By the time I get home, I sighed and relieved,
tearing my shirt apart, lying on the bed,
thinking what I'd been doing for the whole day.

The long working hours is killing me.
Yet I have no choice but to keep on the pace.

Undeniably the working environment in Japan is terrible.
Loyalty served as their first priority.. and working like a d*g..

Tired...

Weekend

It is another lovely weekend.

I was wondering whether how should I spend it.
For the past few weeks I was terribly busy with my work... (even weekends! |||)

- Rest? Sleep?
- Settle Fukuoka business trip preparation?
- Continue my project?

Thinking of having a tattoo..
Thinking of working out..
Thinking of improving my technical skill..
Thinking of completing my personal projects..
Thinking of going back hometown..
Thinking of continue my master study..
Thinking of quitting..

A lot things to think of..

But..

Which one should I done first?

lol.. maybe in the end all of them are dreams..

Shit..

T.T Overtime Overload Omg...

Company's review was done last week, and yahooo, my marks is still the same :D (teehee.. of cause there is reason behind this...)

And a few points was made:

- I am slow, not efficient
- Easy to fall into the maze that was created by myself :)
- Working late, not a healthy lifestyle

Furthermore, things to be upgraded:

- Technical skill
- Time management
- Task prioritization

T.T sad..

I was overloaded with tasks, my Vietnamese member had gone back hometown to do his Visa; in which it means I have to support his portion of workload...

Feeling like a torture, stress and helplessness.

Quarrelled with my leader a bit T.T.. *sigh*...

I need a *uhm* :)

Yesterday I was feeling a bit sick, with sore throat.
Woke up at around 7am and resume my sleep again in the morning.

And now, I'm working at home T.T

September 11

RIP

(Link)

Izzie Died.. T.T

Izzie Died.. T.T

(Link)

Limbo

Life . Death . Dream

(Link)

Super Vacation?

July -> South Korea.. : )
August -> Hong Kong.. : |
October -> Fukuoka?.. : (

Shit...

没勇气就别去爱，你继续下去只是让人觉得你犯贱而已。

Tag ( ! )

Beside your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
[neck]

How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
[sleepy, and wanted more]

Who was the last person/people you took a picture with?
[my friend]

Would you consider yourself spoiled?
[i'm perfect]

Will you donate blood?
[been before, and won't ever]

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
[yes]

Do you want someone to be dead?
[how would i]

What does your last text message say?
[reporting my arrival to my parents ]

What are you thinking right now?
[body building]

Do you want someone to be with you right now?
[no, i like to be alone]

What was the time you went to bed last night?
[12.45am]

Where did you buy tee you are wearing right now?
[TopMan]

Is someone on your mind right now?
[no]

Who was the last person who text you?
[dad]

Who is No.2 having a relationship with?
[i dun tag ppl...]

Is No.3 is male or female?
[i dun tag ppl...]

If No.7 and No.1 get togather, would it be good?
[i dun tag ppl...]

What is No.1 studying about?
[i dun tag ppl...]

When was the last time you chatted with them?
[i dun tag ppl...]

Is No.4 single?
[i dun tag ppl...]

Say something about No.2
[i dun tag ppl...]

Waht do you think No.3 and No.6 being togather?
[i dun tag ppl...]

Describe No.9
[i dun tag ppl...]

What will you do if No.6 and No.7 fight?
[i dun tag ppl...]

Do you like No.8?
[i dun tag ppl...]

Accident

Pity grandma.. said she wanted to walk on her own rather than stuck in aunt's home..
I knew the feeling of living in others house without getting much welcome..

Hope she'll get well soon.

Merry Christmas

lomo始终有点复古的感觉
网上查过了价钱，还不便宜呢
心里痒痒的还想买一家来炫耀的说。。

冰 . 释 . 前 . 嫌
得来真的不容易，失去了才方知它的珍贵。。。

One Day In My Life 004

There are a few surprises these few weeks...
apart from the boring life struggles...

Some even I can't believe my eyes that,
like:

"Ugh... how come they're together"...
"I can't believe it!!" I shouted...

Really OMG...
Ok, I admit that many things might change,
but this is really unacceptable for me...
maybe world is small,
maybe that is fate...
maybe there's maybe...

Shit,
OK, no more grand-ma story...
Have a good night sleep and we will see how small the world is tomorrow!

Update:

Hey yea before I sleep there is something about work...
I think I have problem dealing with people lar,
Like compensate with people on what people needs,
But most ppl I'm Ok with them lar... hmm...

Ok I admit I might be acted like a prince,
like everything must go thru me before processed..

I just wanted it to be perfect,
but sometimes things are always subjective,
people have preferences and differences on how they are dealing with stuff,
I guessed I should cope with that too :)

Haha.. but still, everything have to go thru me :D
Muahaha...

One Day In My Life 003

All I can think of is..

Gym..

Gym..

and Gym..

Then..

Swim..

Jogging..

Keeping fit..

Aww.. tiring.. |||

One Day In My Life 002

... This is life?!

1. Wake up
2. Work
3. Sleep

Next: Repeat 1-3 for 5 cycles

And Sleep for 2 cycles, (V)Surplus
If there's Special Event on the two cycles, (X)Shortfall

Aim: no

All projects and inspirational activities postponed for further notice!

...

One Day In My Life 001

My alarm went off at 9.20AM, and I slept back, waiting for another alarm to ring. Of course I'll not waited any extra minute otherwise I'll be back into my dream again. Ak also sleep late today, but a little bit earlier. Strange, he said he'll be more early if not car pooling with me. Am I the cause for him being late? I giggled.. :) Of course not la..

Today's work was better than yesterday. I was almost falling asleep during afternoon time yesterday for not enough sleep. Having full time of settling the documentation, auditing and release packaging makes me tension for whole day. I scared that I might left out something or any degrade that might happen. But still, I packaged for 6 times for today. Snr audited before my real final release is out :D And back in the night, Ks and Crne back earlier and left me, Ak and Yy for dinner. Had a headache on deciding the food as well..

I've been wondering. Did I just graduated yesterday? The feeling of going to campus and study still intense inside of me.