One Day In My Life 004

There are a few surprises these few weeks...
apart from the boring life struggles...

Some even I can't believe my eyes that,
like:

"Ugh... how come they're together"...
"I can't believe it!!" I shouted...

Really OMG...
Ok, I admit that many things might change,
but this is really unacceptable for me...
maybe world is small,
maybe that is fate...
maybe there's maybe...

Shit,
OK, no more grand-ma story...
Have a good night sleep and we will see how small the world is tomorrow!

Update:

Hey yea before I sleep there is something about work...
I think I have problem dealing with people lar,
Like compensate with people on what people needs,
But most ppl I'm Ok with them lar... hmm...

Ok I admit I might be acted like a prince,
like everything must go thru me before processed..

I just wanted it to be perfect,
but sometimes things are always subjective,
people have preferences and differences on how they are dealing with stuff,
I guessed I should cope with that too :)

Haha.. but still, everything have to go thru me :D
Muahaha...

One Day In My Life 003

All I can think of is..

Gym..

Gym..

and Gym..

Then..

Swim..

Jogging..

Keeping fit..

Aww.. tiring.. |||

One Day In My Life 002

... This is life?!

1. Wake up
2. Work
3. Sleep

Next: Repeat 1-3 for 5 cycles

And Sleep for 2 cycles, (V)Surplus
If there's Special Event on the two cycles, (X)Shortfall

Aim: no

All projects and inspirational activities postponed for further notice!

...

One Day In My Life 001

My alarm went off at 9.20AM, and I slept back, waiting for another alarm to ring. Of course I'll not waited any extra minute otherwise I'll be back into my dream again. Ak also sleep late today, but a little bit earlier. Strange, he said he'll be more early if not car pooling with me. Am I the cause for him being late? I giggled.. :) Of course not la..

Today's work was better than yesterday. I was almost falling asleep during afternoon time yesterday for not enough sleep. Having full time of settling the documentation, auditing and release packaging makes me tension for whole day. I scared that I might left out something or any degrade that might happen. But still, I packaged for 6 times for today. Snr audited before my real final release is out :D And back in the night, Ks and Crne back earlier and left me, Ak and Yy for dinner. Had a headache on deciding the food as well..

I've been wondering. Did I just graduated yesterday? The feeling of going to campus and study still intense inside of me.

The Colors of Autumn: Autumn Harmony

(1)Spell it out; (2)In your skin; (3)beige; (4)Almost avocado; (5)Calming retreat;

-x- I caught the fragrance of you while I was awake, yet you were not beside me. I'm missing you.

-x- The leaves started to wither and fall off the branches. How sad.

-x- How if I could really take a glimpse of what you're thinking. Probably it might be a sad one.

-x- I was heading towards the bar we've used to be patronized, drinking alone and wondered if you were there too.

-x- I left with a sigh.

September Blues

Issues on September
Lonely on September

Speeding through the dazzling street lights every nights,
mesmerizing the song repeated in CD players,
I found out that,

It was wonderful :) I like the feeling.

於心有愧 by Eason Chan

如果我听歌可眼红 何以待你好偏不懂
自细做过多少美梦 慈悲的伟论
连乞丐喊穷心也痛
竟怕放怀拥抱你 让你露欢容
追悔无用 转眼发现 你失踪
曾听说过 你某夜结婚 未曾露笑容
实在不敢知道我是元凶 大概当初我未懂得顾忌 年少率性害惨你
令人受伤滋味 难保更可悲 这心地再善良终生怎去 向你说对不起
良心有愧 原来随便错手 可毁了人一世
立志助世人脱贫以为 便伟大到像多麼有为
这种刺猬 连谁曾待我好 都可带来伤势
被我害过来接受我跪 是我在制造眼泪居然想救世
就算积储献尽饥荒赤地 而太多债没处理
累人累己滋味 余生也记起 数一数 我实情不只得你要说句对不起
良心有愧 原来随便错手 可毁了人一世
立志助世人脱贫以为 便伟大到像多麼有为
这种刺猬 连谁曾待我好 都可带来伤势
被我害过来接受我跪 是我在制造眼泪居然想救世
于心有愧 原来随便错手 可毁了人一世
立志助世人脱贫以为 便伟大到像多麼有为
这种刺猬 连谁曾待我好 都可带来伤势 内疚内疚内疚没作为
直到在某年某日我能安息於葬礼
仍想你一家 可到齐

Understand by YUI

Song: Understand
Artist: YUI

たぶん泣いてた　帰り道　うつむいたままで
You could have been crying,
staring at the ground as we headed for home

何も言えなかった　ずっと側にいたけど
There was nothing I could say
Still, I stayed next to you the whole time

公園を横切って　近道して歩いた
As we cut across the park

なんとなく　わかってるよ　あたしにだって
Somehow, it all became clear.

夕暮れに　伸びる　影　幸せのかたちが変わる
Like shadows lengthening at dusk
our happiness becomes distorted

ずっと一緒だよ　そう言っていたのに
You said we’d be together forever…

悲しみはいつだって　愛情の近くに潜んで
There was always a sadness just beneath the surface of our love

意地悪するよって　笑いながら話してた
“You’re so mean to me!” you'd say, laughing.

正義の味方なんて　もし本当にいたなら
A knight in shining armour,
if that sort of thing really existed,

困らせてしまうかもね　なんて思った
would just be a nuisance… right?

夕暮れに　伸びる　影　幸せのかたちが変わる
Like shadows lengthening at dusk,
Our happiness becomes distorted

ずっと一緒には　いられないから
Because we can’t stay together...

責めてばかりいては　生きてゆけないよ
I can’t go on living with all this blame

だって間違いばかり　…繰り返すんだ　…繰り返すんだ
We just keep making the same mistakes over and over again…

夕暮れに　伸びる　影　幸せのかたちが変わる
Like shadows lengthening at dusk
Our happiness becomes distorted

歩き始めた　だいじょうぶだよ
I start walking...
I think it’s for the best.

:D

Dear blog.. dun think too much, and dun worry too much.. everything will b fine.

have a smile-


:D

Weight Scale

Thursday I weighted 53kg, I told myself.. "OMG!... I gotta put on weight"
Friday I weighted 55kg, I told myself.. "Strange.. I'm back to my weight again.."
Today I weighted 58kg, ...
...
...

How funny... Are you playing fool on me?

Sg 2 Day Trip

Friday (29/8/2009)
9am - Bus to JB, Larkin
1.30pm - Reaches bus station, waited frens for 1 n half hour =.=.. boring
3pm - Passing Kastam to SG
5pm - Reaches SG, Bedok
Nite - Went Bugis

Saturday (30/8/2009) Rainy dayzzz
11.30am - Marina Bay / Mall / Suntec
6pm - Tempines Mall / Tempines One
9pm - Dinner

Sunday (31/8/2009)
Back to MY

Let there be light

1:1 - In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.

1:2 - And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.

1:3 - And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.

1:4 - And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness.

(Genesis)

Dignity

Be erratic,
Be prosper.

Mindless rage everywhere,
Won't know whats hit next.

I'm not liable to sudden change.

Everything are talking about quality of life, well yea, they're just talking and talking. Did you see the way of their life improved significantly? Bullshit.

They're just a piece of mind, rattling with "What's new", "What's hot", "What's good" and "What's free", your average piece of shit. Environment did a good job on rationalize our desire, our future, and taking away what we really wanted, diverted into different area of interest, and producing more and more dumb people out there. WTH.

We have this strange world.
People are doing something, others started to follow, and more people started to come over, taking pride of what they knew, spreading them out or making road block everywhere.
OK, aunty and uncles, please move along the way la. U're making more and more people sick here!

Still! Where's quality of life? Bullshit.

Fallacies & Pitfalls

沉溺在爱的梦里，你的足迹。

讯息

今天讯息时，
我还是第一次
一边哭着，
一边写讯息。

懊恼自己没用，
不安分，不守己。
我也不想把自己的心锁着，
任由封闭下去。

我自己就是我自己，
没有人可以改变。
你也是你，
不需要刻意去变做不是自己的自己。

Up!

Cried two times during the movie 'Up!'...

The first time was in the starting part where Ellie and Carl are together, married, having fun together, being told of Ellie can't conceive child (at first I thought that she had cancer), and during the old times where Ellie died happily together with Carl.

It was very touching at the moment.

The second part was in the ending when Carl took the 'Adventure Book' out and look at the 'Planned Adventure' portion, Ellie insert all the memorable time's photo into it indicating that Carl has fulfilled her dreams of adventure even though he didn't actually brought Ellie to the Paradise Falls.

Very touching indeed...

Talking about inspiration...
There are a few stuff I need to planned for my next upgrade,
though it may sounds like NATO.

See here.. Taadaa~


Two books for inspiration and self development, 1 novel and 1 for English proficiency..
1. Advanced English grammar upgrade
2. Continue my design work
3. Kick off my projects
4. Working for noctorus.net

我也不想這樣

語言:國語,  曲長:4m53s
作曲:Alex San,  編曲:
監製:,  填詞:林夕


忽然間　毫無緣故　再多的愛　也不滿足
想你的眉目　想到迷糊　不知不覺讓我中毒
忽然間　很需要保護　假如世界一瞬間結束
假如你退出　我只是說假如

不是不明白　太想看清楚　反而讓你的面目變得模糊
越在乎的人　越小心安撫　反而連一個吻也留不住

我也不想這麼樣　反反覆覆　反正最後每個人都孤獨
你的甜蜜變成我的痛苦　離開你有沒有幫助
我也不想這麼樣　起起伏伏　反正每段關係都是孤獨
眼看感情變成一個包袱　都怪我太渴望得到　你的保護

悶

作詞：林夕　
作曲：張亞東

誰說愛上一個不回家的人　唯一結局就是無止境的等
是不是不管愛上什麼人　也要天長地久求一個安穩
噢噢　難道真沒有別的劇本
怪不得　能動不動就說到永恆

誰說愛人就該愛他的靈魂　否則聽起來讓人覺得不誠懇
是不是不管愛上什麼人　也要天長地久求一個安穩
噢噢　我真想有那麼的單純
不可能　難道真沒有別的可能　這怎麼成

哎～我不要安穩

哎～我不要犧牲

誰說愛人就該愛他的靈魂　否則聽起來讓人覺得不誠懇
是不是不管愛上什麼人　也要天長地久求一個安穩
噢噢　難道真沒有別的劇本
不可能　難道真沒有別的可能　這怎麼成

哎～我不要安穩

別希望我會愛的滿身傷痕
我不怕沉淪　一切隨興能不能

Low life, High life...
We're the best :D
My life is colorful...

from the seeds of hearts planted... blooming with blossoms of flowers :D

And a lot !!!

Blues

很想很想痛痛快快的去爱一场，
去关心一个人，然后把那个人收藏着，占为己有。

理智告诉我说，面前已经有一个摆在你面前可是你没有珍惜。
理智问我说，面前的他，是对的吗？
理智告诉我说，我理智吗？

从前，心底里就好像有好多好多的话要说。
可是从前那东西就像被塞子塞着，憋着，忍着，想着。。
一天又一天，我没办法不想，
天天就想着，我们怎么了，我们就这样吗？
不理，不看，不想，不管，就由它去。
我麻木了，
我变得不会去爱，
不会去管，不会去理。
这是对的吗？还是没对没错吗？
还是从前，我已经忘了怎样去爱。

知觉麻木了，没感觉了，
一切都靠工作去发泄，
去找可以让自己的到回酬的让自己满足，让自己心里没那么空虚。
继续奋斗，继续工作。
我已经不是我了。

到底哪一把尺，
可以让我衡量一切？
怎样是对，怎样是错？

心底里的化学作用，
开始酸素般腐蚀一切，
开始一口一口吃掉，咬掉，再撕裂得一寸不留，
我最后，
就成为一个空壳。。。