My heart dances a 'lil bit..
having another sleepy pill..
close my eyes, and that's it,
I'm back to my nightmare again.

Nightmare of having too many stuff to handle.

I'm lonely..
I need to talk to u, sometimes.
But I don't know what to be said.
I know you're having a lot of stress too..

I kept facing challenges,
I knew it'll never end,
I knew they'll keep on popping in front of me..
I knew I need to take it as experience,
But I'm at the limit.
Please hold me still..

Maybe..

I'm not a child anymore.
I need to be strong..

幸福套餐

第一次被点名..来玩玩下≡(O_o)≡

第一：被點者請在自己的 BLOG裏寫下答案
第二：請傳另外十位的人.=)￣▽￣"o
第三：傳閱人‘請在于這十位當中鬥留言版’ 告知他(她) 被點名了..
第四：這當中的十位的人‘不得拒絕’
第五：被點者‘請注明被誰點暸’ 在哪接到‘在傳給下十位’
第六：這些被點名者’ 你們被點會得到祝福‘並且願望會實現’ 也會得到幸福.^^

幸福套餐 NO.1 ♥
1. 你的綽號 : aYiii(拉音两秒|||）, Ivan, ah Gan~~~ (拉音三秒|||）
2. 年齡 : 23
3. 生日 : 18/09/1985
4. 星座 : 处女座
5. 興趣 : 学习
6. 專長 : 扮幼稚（=。。。=）

幸福套餐 NO.2 ♥
1. 你有沒有喜歡的人? : 不懂
2. 是否在交往? : 不懂
3. 現在幸福嗎? : 幸福的是可以做自己的喜欢的东西，不幸福的是没有钱。。哇哈哈
4. 如果上天給你勇氣，最想做什麽事? : 去买很多很多的东西让自己幸福一下
5. 如果有天,你愛的人跟你告白的話? : 去确定一下是不是真的爱偶

幸福套餐 NO.3 ♥
1. 點你的人是 : 维
2. 他是妳的 : 大学活动的朋友
3. 他的個性? : 优柔寡断，还没定性吗？￣▽￣"o
4. 認識他多久? : 1年多
5. 你覺得他怎樣? : 不错（哈哈。。应该到反过来，你很耐得我吧，偶是超级臭脾气的人乜）
6. 你想對他說什麽 : 节哀顺便咯

幸福套餐 NO.4 ♥
1. 最愛的節目 : 卡通
2. 最愛的音樂 : 另类（alternative）
3. 最愛的季節 : 秋天
4. 最愛的卡通 : Tom&Jerry
5. 最愛的人 : 自己人
6. 最愛的顔色 : 粉紫蓝
7. 最愛的國家 : 日本
8. 最愛的天氣 : 雨后的夜晚

幸福套餐 NO.5 ♥
1. 如果上天給你三個願望:
a) 永保青春
b) 很多很多的钱
c) 很开心的生活
2. 你是很專一的人嗎 : 是和不是（心底蛮花）
3. 最深刻的回憶 : 大学生涯
4. 你是個很有信心的人嗎? : 看遇到谁咯
5. 你很愛微笑嗎 : 还好
6. 如果你要放棄你現在的生活,你願意嗎: 吓？自杀吗？现在来说暂时不会放弃吧。
7. 妄想什麽樣的生活 : 自己的生活
8. 是否橫刀奪愛才是愛 : 是，有勇气拿得起，放得下都是好事


調卷到此結束‘點人者請至于被點者的留言版’ 告知被點名了.

點名名單：

EeLing，YeeChin，YongLerk, KarLai, Klausner, Xoxeva, AhLeng.

New haircut :)

29 Nov - Ah bee birthday, forgotten
30 Nov - CS birthday, wait til noon baru teringat and send her msg
Anyone faster report ur bday or else i won't remember all of ur birthday de.
(Yala, jus treat i'm not sincere la.)

Yay, now December d {(~*~)} holiday mood
8, 11, 25, 29 holiday, 26 annual leave..
should i take the 12 to go back hometown or not leh?

Sick...
Wonder why... why... why...

=.=

December is special cause there are holidays in most of the weeks.
Stressful as there are a lot of things to be confirmed, lots of work to do.

Christmas. and the miracle. sparkling all the way towards the path in front of my face.
Is it leading me?

What's next?

worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry
worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry
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worry worry  - Get well soon, and be stronger. -  worry worry
worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry
worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry
worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry
worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry

Just slacking..

Could you imagine, life with full of codes..
Your action, translated into logic conditions..
if - else - if - else..
and
repetitions..

You're becoming ROBOT-alized..

空で飛んでいたい、
君へ。。。

- Dsgn01 -

恶性循环

不理白不理
等到你觉醒后
要回去再从来的时候
它已经结疤留印了

十月中
雨天 雨天 雨天

偶又染了头发~颜色蛮暗的。

悠悠冉冉又过了九月
十月的落寞景色应该不会重来了吧
但愿。

この世に生きる者同士、
命の重さはお互い同じと思し召し、
何卒平等に平等に。

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　（眉山・さだまさし）

Firstly.. Thanks for all your greetings and presents~~.. I like them very much.. although it has been days, weeks.. or months i didn't see u all.. but u all still have heart to send me all these.. haha.. very paiseh..

Thank you all..

And also, special thanks to someone who gave me this --- >..


^____^

learned to cook the japanese dried seaweed => "芽ひじき"
but someone say taste not nice.. =.=

What have I done in last few months..

June:
- Went to Japan joining homestay programme for around 9 days
- Interviewed by Panasonic

July:
- Accepted by Panasonic and worked under PRDCM, Cyberjaya
- Undergo training arranged by company, including C# training, CMMI process training, and UML training.
* Moved stuffs from hometown to Equine, Seri Kembangan

August:
- Assigned 1 project (small feature only though =.=) [for fresh start]
- Getting familiar with company process and review process
- Self training with: C#, C++, Design templates, Process and others
* Convocation at 10 August where everyone gathers
* Went to Melacca at 23, 24 August for 8du Concert
+ Jess' birthday

September:
- Self training with: C#, C++, Wiki and others
* Went to Melacca for QuanWu gathering at 6, 7 September
+ Henry's birthday
= New project coming soon =.=|||

Um... listening to the song: 蒲公英的约定 reminds me of the days when I was back there in MMU hovering and wandering my every decision back there. Yea, miss the days, even these few weeks I was dreaming the life of being university student (which was kinda dumb back there during beta or gamma year). Walking the same path, meeting the same people, again and again in my dream where we are having fun together, learning together..

Learning... absorbing... and expressing, it's a rhythm of life. Our way of expressing ourselves reflect our identity and our behavior, in which if you heard someone always keep on saying "I" and "me" reflects that that person is self-centered and perhaps someone holds a high position. Somehow I feel I'm those kind of people because the object I always conveyed is "I" or "me" despite I'm not holding any critical positions (yah, I'm self centered =.=).

I'm not sure where I found the information about this but it's sure that people will get irritated if you keep on saying "I", "me", "I", "me". People aren't asking about you, people aren't concert about what happened to you, so just keep it to yourself, please! !

Okay, back to the miss-the-old-timer topic, yea, hopes tonight I'll be back at the same place and same time, again~

Good nite~ *(^_^)*, hope it'll end soon..

mmm... can't sleep...
went thru an old old blog from my memories -> panpig
I'm wondering how he can sustain so much pain and still go on with his memories,
life goes on..

Well.. maybe I don't deserve it.

People are talking differently from what they're telling physically,
what they think,
what they act..
I'm hoping I don't started out the word before the world started crumbling with pieces of blues.

Uhh..
Nah, hopes to live the life to fullest~ yay. ^_^

From friday:

Wahh... it was the first time working till 4am in the morning.
Friday was the terrible day, it followed that after a bug had been found before release and soon "attracted" more and more bugs in the programs... Gheeze...
I was hoping to have the buffet at Shogun with colleagues.

Ahh.. nvm, I still have the chance on tomorrow (?today).
Way to go, Shogun~

By the way, Wall-E is nice.. but lack of something... |||
I watched it with Selin@, W3ng, JESz,
by the time i reached home, it was already 10pm.
blur while driving my way home having an empty stomach.

hoping to start my project this month, doing some preparation for it too..
hoping to work in sg too but babi said sg having crisis currently,
or perhaps I should staying here for some period first and learn something..

It wasn't that bad, after all.

P@n@s0nic's {Pr!)_(M} working lifestyle is this:
- You'll get a flexible timetable arrangement, but normally you won't because the deadline are strict
- It's quite stress working under the deadlines (maybe depending on the project/s)
- The working environment is not that friendly as it seemed (every company do have politics rite?) Okie... I was wrong... They are friendly... I think too much.
- We can learn a lot here compared to other company "In Malaysia"
- It's a bit stress because it is Jpn3s3 company? Normally all the companies have stress, not just PRD
- Now if I'm under contract, I can't claim OT allowance, but the project does need me for OT, is that a contradict? Does it means I *don't really have to OT for my project?*, normally under strict deadlines, and again, you won't do that..
- Me and other colleagues are fine, (especially with same gang), but for those I'm anti.. then soli la.. You all sucks, stupid, brainless and selfish. Most ppl who study with first class grade are selfish rite? Lolx... I gotta rephrase this... after 2 months of working... changed my perspective.

What did I studied and still studying?
- CMMI model, important for deciding a company's success or failure (CMMI = Capability Maturing Model Integration) and continuous process.
- Process Training, introduced the organisation's process and the protocols.
- C#.NET training and framework study.
- UML training.
- Coding design and pattern and applications.

Something extra:
- Relationship handling
- Stress handling.
- Colleague's relationship handling. (you'll face them... all the time, if minus the sleep time, is almost 2/3 of all the time)
- Time management.
- Misc (Something related to relationships, friends, item list, house keeping, and others)

ANd yea.. Sorry ya.. sorrie to keep u worry and worry. I'll try to learn how to manage myself better coz I looks weak outside,.. and inside too. If we have the time we'll go to somewhere nice k? Away from work, away from stress and away from sadness. Cheer up ^_^