You are The Hermit

Prudence, Caution, Deliberation.

The Hermit points to all things hidden, such as knowledge and inspiration,hidden enemies. The illumination is from within, and retirement from participation in current events.

The Hermit is a card of introspection, analysis and, well, virginity. You do not desire to socialize; the card indicates, instead, a desire for peace and solitude. You prefer to take the time to think, organize, ruminate, take stock. There may be feelings of frustration and discontent but these feelings eventually lead to enlightenment, illumination, clarity.

The Hermit represents a wise, inspirational person, friend, teacher, therapist. This a person who can shine a light on things that were previously mysterious and confusing.

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Me != myself!

I'm changing.


I tipped myself. I contradict myself. I am my shadow...


My world consists of dreamland. And part of it exists in reality.
The reality me is not me.
I'm nothing if there is no definition for me. Or anyone who gives definition to my existence.


Something you can't reach, you feel it, you draw near it, you became part of it.


The identity of which you gain when you know the right time to choose.
It's not replication. It's not disguise.
It's mere repetition of everyday life.
Something you've gained after these processes.

Something I should've know earlier.
Something inside me has grow darker and darker.
I'm complicated.
I can't comprehend.
I'm not manage to comprehend so many information.
Part of them are fake, harmful, and influencing.
Information change thus I change.

Everything is just formular.

Everything is just a field of influential element.

Everything is nothing if there is no definition for them.

Definition comes first? or Everything comes first?

Who gave definition for them?

Evil and kindness meant nothing now...
They have their complicated way of manipulating things.
We gave judgement to them because they are harmful or beneficial to us.

Human is just a selfish entity.

I am selfish.
I wanted to gain advantage from others.

Everyone is selfish.
Everyone wanted to gain advantage from others.

No one will realise how the process going on...

People just see outcome compare with the input.

All are just nothing, all are the same,

repetition...

iteration...

iteration...

and iteration...

I'm just a minor part of your life, as I'd never play the major role part.
Now I understand, sooner or later I have to choose the way I am.

何で僕は泣くの？
何で全てのことずっと変えるの？
日々自分もう嫌いだ．
何も知らない、何も作られない．

今私はアミゴ．アミガのオンラインゲーム遊ぶ．
夕べ一人見た、彼は日本人ですが、変の人だよ．
彼はkennと言う。２００ゲームの金盗った．
大変ですね．．．

講話的心態

急事，慢慢講。
大事，清楚講。
小事，幽默講。
沒把握的事，謹慎講。
沒發生的事，不要胡亂講。
做不到的事，不必講。
他人的事，不要亂講。
自己的事，聼聼自己的心怎樣講。
萬事對事，不針對人去講。
現在的事，做了再講。
未來的事，決意了可行才去講。
爭論的事，溫和的講，心平氣和的講。
不要惡意去講，而善意去講。
開心的事，看場合講。
傷心的事，不要見人就講。
討厭的事，對事不對人講。
如果有對我不滿意的地方，請一定要對我講。

Holiday~ holiday~ again..
Well, it's time for my plan again, PLAYプレイ^_^

Seem like the PCSX2 haven't complete yet,
I'm still waiting for the 0.8.3 coming out, probably end of 2007~
And yea, Starcraft 2, Fallout 3,
really miss those games, AdDiCtEDdd...O.o|||

And continue to my JapaneseLv2 revision,
hopefully I can be able to take the test this year,
no more delay~

Happy Holiday~~~ ^^

I'm breaking up.. heal me.. and heal the desperate one..
pls.. dun get hurt..

Well.. seem like I've done it again.
Another mistake, and made the whole website down.
Silly as ever..

I met someone online,
I knew someone thru online,
issit real?

I wasn't touched at all,
I'm cold.
I'm tired.
Damn you.
Damn you all.

Endless war, endless conflict, no solution.
Heal yourself, rejuvenate your mind, cleanse the darkness.

=_= I'm just hallucinating, don't mind me.

|: wei i wana say 1st ya
|: if i hv 2 bek earlier 2 mlc n cook all d stuff
|: i dun wan touch report
|: i dun wan do all stuff la
|: dun wan be nice ppl anymore
|: =.=!!

wat's the meaning of this?
one word pushing everything away?

ok you can't do u can assign people to do,
you just confirm with it next time.

A leader is not just doing the work alone but is doing in group.

Ok, u're busy.
I'm busy too, and have to think of a lot of real solutions.

Summore I got people inside group asking of weird questions.
I'm getting crazy. What a colourful world.

And do I need to do the enquiries myself?
Why nobody take initiative?
I'm not the whole group.
I'm just part of the group.
I lead the group to success.
People can question my action.
I'm not god.

And tomorrow I have to see the lecturer again.
Stupid lecturer.
Anyway, thanks to people
who took initiative to question about my action.
thanks to people
who ask a lot of troubles that makes me learn.
I'm growing up.

Here is how we cares for others, I quoted it because I wanted to remind myself of it. Don't want to create my own world anymore...

"when we do or speak out something, it doesnt mean other ppl will have to accept even you think it is right. becoz everyone's perspective of right or wrong is different. so when we act and speak, we have to speak and act for the other person, not for ourselves. if we can do tat, then only we can tell ourselves, we are thinking on other people's behalf."

Expressing yourself... how do we express ourself? To laugh whenever you're happy, to shout whenever you're feeling to, to be sad when something bad happens. People just say I'm a robot, cause I don't have any feeling to anything. I'm selfish.

I going out sushi again with MeiPing, PuiPui and AiZhen in Sushi King JJ today, there are variety of topics we've discussed. We're kinda funny at that time cause we're snatching those plates like we've hungry for few days without food. PuiPui snatched those plates upon settling down at the seat, I was like |||... wow.. Hehe, seriously I can't spend more already, else I'll bankrupt. Crazy sushi king promotion, I'm one of the supporter.

Looking back then, we're having a lot of fun together. And sometimes there are miserable times, while most of the time I just ran away from problems, blaming myself why I couldn't make everything better. Lament, without much improvement, in the end, I'm still the same?

And yea, another thing, PuiPui asked whether how ppl looking at her at the first time, I made the point, but I wanted don't want to like make her unhappy and say something after then. I'm just wanted to cover up my point so it doesn't looks ugly? But indeed it looked ugly in the end.

So, making a point is just straight forward, like MeiPing, she just say: Yes, you are. And that solved the problem and makes people think that you're honest without much problem. It's just straight forward, nothing more.

Sure I can do it, try harder!

Sometimes the most attractive person turns out to be the most lame one in the end, or after some time. Just don't judge a book by its cover. Actually I'm browsing through some old photos and I discovered that.. Some of the people do change and become nicer but some others become the opposite.. People do change, I mean physically, but how do we know whether they're still same person after some time? Depends right?

Currently doing websites, noctorus.net, bought it for rm40, and also the 3g webspace. Arghh.. spent so much this month.

Terribly scared that I can't cope with stress anymore... I'm stucked.
Towards brighter me,
towards better me,
towards best me.
Lets pray... ... lolz (><)

Here's the pic MeiShan sent me,
we all took it last saturday.




I viewed back the pic I took before clubbing last saturday,
my make-up was terrible...
now I can only put the filtering with Photoshop..
arghhhh...
but it was ok coz i'm going clubbing, haha..

X-noPic-X

Yesterday valentine,
Me, PuiPui and her bf, MeiPing, and EeLing went out,
but actually it's a bad idea to go to sampan,
coz it's full of couples,
i was embarrassed,
and then we went to beach, how romantic ^^..
But the feel is not there..
haha.. dunno how to describe..
//lack of something..

Morning, overslept and skipped the first lecture class,
then after that i attended the cancelled class at 1pm,
i'm silly.. as usual.



So happie.. i bought myself the Sprix wax today..
and i was driving my bike outside,
it was terrible when i get back and cleaned my face,
whole patch of dust...



Going back tomorrow nite.
Happie Chinese New Year ^_^.

Happie Valentine's DayyyYY ^_^

for me, this is a day for friends to have fun
for me, this is a day for people to get a better life

not only for Couples, OK?

Really sorrie to hear that Arashi and Nick having quarrel n split
Hope everything is fine.

N i went for japanese generator again.. lolz

My japanese name is
長谷川 Hasegawa (long valley river) 翼 Tsubasa (wing).
Take your real japanese name generator! today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.

Just slacking... what am I going to do?
There are plenty of tasks around me,
while I'm searching for fun :)

I went for a hair cut at TeamHair today,
he commented I should:

• He suggest that I buy the dry wax,
• so that my hair won't look so flat on the back.
• I nid to use fingers to twist my hair evrytime =_=
• It's better to perm my hair.. (Huh? I can't accept..)
• The top of my hair is too short and looks thin.
• Same to my side.
• Put more wax when swimming, for protection!!??