Fallacies & Pitfalls

沉溺在爱的梦里，你的足迹。

讯息

今天讯息时，
我还是第一次
一边哭着，
一边写讯息。

懊恼自己没用，
不安分，不守己。
我也不想把自己的心锁着，
任由封闭下去。

我自己就是我自己，
没有人可以改变。
你也是你，
不需要刻意去变做不是自己的自己。

Up!

Cried two times during the movie 'Up!'...

The first time was in the starting part where Ellie and Carl are together, married, having fun together, being told of Ellie can't conceive child (at first I thought that she had cancer), and during the old times where Ellie died happily together with Carl.

It was very touching at the moment.

The second part was in the ending when Carl took the 'Adventure Book' out and look at the 'Planned Adventure' portion, Ellie insert all the memorable time's photo into it indicating that Carl has fulfilled her dreams of adventure even though he didn't actually brought Ellie to the Paradise Falls.

Very touching indeed...

Talking about inspiration...
There are a few stuff I need to planned for my next upgrade,
though it may sounds like NATO.

See here.. Taadaa~


Two books for inspiration and self development, 1 novel and 1 for English proficiency..
1. Advanced English grammar upgrade
2. Continue my design work
3. Kick off my projects
4. Working for noctorus.net

我也不想這樣

語言:國語,  曲長:4m53s
作曲:Alex San,  編曲:
監製:,  填詞:林夕


忽然間　毫無緣故　再多的愛　也不滿足
想你的眉目　想到迷糊　不知不覺讓我中毒
忽然間　很需要保護　假如世界一瞬間結束
假如你退出　我只是說假如

不是不明白　太想看清楚　反而讓你的面目變得模糊
越在乎的人　越小心安撫　反而連一個吻也留不住

我也不想這麼樣　反反覆覆　反正最後每個人都孤獨
你的甜蜜變成我的痛苦　離開你有沒有幫助
我也不想這麼樣　起起伏伏　反正每段關係都是孤獨
眼看感情變成一個包袱　都怪我太渴望得到　你的保護

悶

作詞：林夕　
作曲：張亞東

誰說愛上一個不回家的人　唯一結局就是無止境的等
是不是不管愛上什麼人　也要天長地久求一個安穩
噢噢　難道真沒有別的劇本
怪不得　能動不動就說到永恆

誰說愛人就該愛他的靈魂　否則聽起來讓人覺得不誠懇
是不是不管愛上什麼人　也要天長地久求一個安穩
噢噢　我真想有那麼的單純
不可能　難道真沒有別的可能　這怎麼成

哎～我不要安穩

哎～我不要犧牲

誰說愛人就該愛他的靈魂　否則聽起來讓人覺得不誠懇
是不是不管愛上什麼人　也要天長地久求一個安穩
噢噢　難道真沒有別的劇本
不可能　難道真沒有別的可能　這怎麼成

哎～我不要安穩

別希望我會愛的滿身傷痕
我不怕沉淪　一切隨興能不能

Low life, High life...
We're the best :D
My life is colorful...

from the seeds of hearts planted... blooming with blossoms of flowers :D

And a lot !!!

Blues

很想很想痛痛快快的去爱一场，
去关心一个人，然后把那个人收藏着，占为己有。

理智告诉我说，面前已经有一个摆在你面前可是你没有珍惜。
理智问我说，面前的他，是对的吗？
理智告诉我说，我理智吗？

从前，心底里就好像有好多好多的话要说。
可是从前那东西就像被塞子塞着，憋着，忍着，想着。。
一天又一天，我没办法不想，
天天就想着，我们怎么了，我们就这样吗？
不理，不看，不想，不管，就由它去。
我麻木了，
我变得不会去爱，
不会去管，不会去理。
这是对的吗？还是没对没错吗？
还是从前，我已经忘了怎样去爱。

知觉麻木了，没感觉了，
一切都靠工作去发泄，
去找可以让自己的到回酬的让自己满足，让自己心里没那么空虚。
继续奋斗，继续工作。
我已经不是我了。

到底哪一把尺，
可以让我衡量一切？
怎样是对，怎样是错？

心底里的化学作用，
开始酸素般腐蚀一切，
开始一口一口吃掉，咬掉，再撕裂得一寸不留，
我最后，
就成为一个空壳。。。

LMAO...

Sexy... but gross...
Hahaha...

(Ali Larter, also famous for "Final Destination", "Heroes" and "Resident Evil")

Pay Back Time!

Aww...
I guess it's time since the warning letter reach my hometown last 3 months...

Tada~ it's PTPTN...
I've owe PTPTN RM66K in total.
Calculation of interest is based on 3% per year.
So for every month it is about RM165 per month..
If next year I still not paying back,
that the total of next year loan would be accumulated to ->
[base] + [last year interest] + {[base] + [last year interest]} x 3%

So in order not to let the number grow exponentially,
I've decided to pay back a big amount first (not really big),
and another main reason is that I don't want my passport being blacklisted.. |||

So i decided to pay back RM3000 first.
Here's the transaction using FPX system (RM0.05 charges required in each transaction).
Let's say I'm using progressive way to return the loan,
in the starting period I should pay back around RM180 per month (That mean's I'm paying back the interest only...), then for now I should be paying back around RM1800 (From Nov2008), and this would temporary lower a bit the amount...
and then... RM63K left...

Way to go...

More information:
http://www.icalvyn.com/how-to-pay-ptptn-online-news-for-interest-adjustment/

Someone Step on Dog Shit!

To: Lim Yi Yang
Cc: Tan Aik Keong
Subject: RE: [HousemateDiscussion]

8/13 1:41:23 PM
Lim Yi Yang: yo
Lim Yi Yang: whaz up
Gan Tyng Yu, Ivan: haha
Lim Yi Yang: ask aik keong sit beside u, then we can discuss lo
Gan Tyng Yu, Ivan: Do you know about the story of dog shit in our house?
Lim Yi Yang: huh?
Lim Yi Yang: dog shit?
Gan Tyng Yu, Ivan: Know anything about it?
Lim Yi Yang: duno wor
Gan Tyng Yu, Ivan: oh.. that means not you lo
Lim Yi Yang: where is the shit?
Lim Yi Yang: dog can come into our house mer?
Gan Tyng Yu, Ivan: because in the house got stain on the ledge to the door there
Gan Tyng Yu, Ivan: got people step on the shit and before enter house he/she dislodge them on the floor near the door
Lim Yi Yang: u mean the main door entry of the house?
Gan Tyng Yu, Ivan: yea inner main door entry
Lim Yi Yang: didn't notice wor
Gan Tyng Yu, Ivan: oh.. then ok.. confirm not u liao..

SMSes from Hui Ying

Hui Ying
Har… Then how wor.. We’re going to organize bbq tomorrow ler..
Somemore I want him to pay me the utilities too.. (means Yi Yang)

Ivan
We will clean it today nite. But we 3 have asked each other but we 3 not step on it.
Than susan bf also asked who step on it de.. And how much his utility?

Hui Ying
Susan’s bf saw a guy’s leather shoe got the stain.. N by the time I got home, he is already in the house with all lights on n gate unlocked.
So I assume he is the one.
Anyway , later we go back will clean it up…

Ivan
Yes, we also saw the shoes. Yiyang said on Tuesday he caught smelly stench outside his room and found that the person who step on the shit clean it using the cloth outside bathroom.
Eh, How much Yiyang’s utility fee?

Hui Ying
Did u know the shoe is belong to whom?

Ivan
We not sure but we’ll consficate once we saw it next time :D
And yea I think that shoe got athlete food, b4 that also very smelly…

END OF DISCUSSION

My Design Path (1)

:D I revamped my blog a bit yesterday.
Quite colorful I guess, the idea struck me yesterday when I had some free time do the patching work to the layout and colorsss...

It had been some time now since last time uni's life as a so called "part-time" designer for clubs and activities. I guess that time I was still in Beta year (first year in degree, pre-u called alpha and so on..) and tada... Sing Yee asked me to join in the Chinese Language Society.

By that time I was still not involved in design work yet. I joined Sing Yee's group in STD(lol, not what you think, it is Special-Task-Division, not.. STD..zzz) together with my cousin and other friends. To me design still is a vague idea of drawing and stuff. Until then I started to get involved in a few other activities and getting a little friends as well a little bit of popularity in CLS.

The first time I was touching design work was the Chinese Cultural Week event where it was driven under Shi Liang and Hui Shin where design devision is Stanley I think. We started off with some banner design, deco and other texturing work for boards. Some said 知音难觅，伯乐难寻 (where it means it's hard to meet that talented one, and somehow it's hard to meet someone who really appreciate your talent too). Thanks to Sing Yee who brought me into the fun, and thanks to other who appreciated my work.

My first work is shown below:
This was the final touch up using Photoshop that time. It's for QuanWu's event for almost 1 year. Seriously the design idea also struck me suddenly during mid term break and I've shared a few designs using this sketch... (not much a choice.. lolz..)


Great time passed so quickly and by the time I turned back and see my design, I will surely say: "That was lousy".. But if people need me for design again, I think I'll need time or I could use the "inspiration" by lightning striking into my head. Haha.. inspiration doesn't come all the time.

Activities: QuanWu, CLS 10th Anniversary, CLS Freshie Camp, Movie Making Awards, Japanese Cultural Week.

Most people said that designers are weird people, I guess that is a true statement.. Designer really have a terrible temper and attitude, knowingly they wanted perfection towards their requirement and not messing up with their design and colors. :D It's a bit like big brother fighting with his young brother for a candy or something like that.. When designer said this is good there is of course a lot of disagreement popping up out.

:D And now, I'm a R&D Engineer in Panasonic.
World sure is interesting, isn't it?

LMAO...

假如是真的

假如流水能回头
请你带我走
假如流水能接受
不再烦忧
假如流水能回头
请你带我走
假如流水能接受
不再烦忧
有人羡慕你
自由自在的流
我愿变做你
到处任意游呀游
假如流水换成我
也要泪儿流
假如我是清流水
我也不回头
假如流水能回头
请你带我走 

My devil was worrying about brother stuff and I don't know what to do to comfort down.

星期四了吗？
呵呵。。。连我也没发觉。
天天忙着赶工，星期五就好象星期一那样。

来！！！从前的力量跑了去那里？？？
我需要你！！！
:D

所有的不快乐，都是自己。

那么如果不快乐就要从自己身上找答案，为什么自己不快乐。

就是这样，完·

习惯了你的重量 温柔得压在手上
现在却不得不放
习惯了你的味道 漂浮在我的肩膀
想到从前 我们都笑了 都哭了
最后一次一起分享月光 隔着一只行李箱
我知道这样忍痛退让只为了一丝微笑
我不会爱 拥抱总是太沉太慢
甜蜜常常少说一段 用心再深 看不出来
当你遇见一份除了我之外的温暖
两人的幸福成了三人拥挤不堪
我试着填满 心却一再少一块
就算我对你的爱 深的像一片海
重的我放不开
亲爱的 我想我不会爱
如果时间可以抵上感伤
我愿意无限制的燃烧
只要你的镜头 永远印着微笑
我不会爱 拥抱总是太沉太慢
甜蜜常常少说一段 用心再深 看不出来
当你遇见一份除了我之外的温暖
两人的幸福成了三人拥挤不堪
我试着填满 心却一再少一块
就算我对你的爱 深的像一片海
重的我放不开
真的 我真的不会爱
爱是烧痛我双手的焰火
却也为你灿烂了黑夜 黑夜~
爱 拥抱总是太慢
甜蜜常常少说了一段
我用心再深 看不出来
当你遇见一份除了我之外的温暖
除了忘我祝福 我能怎么办
对你的爱 就算像一片海
重的我放不开
亲爱的 我真的不会爱

Ok..
Process is an important asset..
Finally I have to admit..
Maintaining it is vital to a product's success/failure..

So..
What's next?

Q: Time given is short..
A: Even though if I've given you the time you wouldn't refine everything on time.. because.. you would end up procrastinating all the time..

Q: Customer request keep on falling in at the final stage of release..
A: We've agreed that we would keep on to the schedule customer requested, and up to their satisfaction, right?

Q: Requirement are way too few information..
A: Ok, you need to clarify with them. Even there is customer request and that would be your fault. Because you didn't clarify with them in the first place..

Q: Ok.. I understand that. But how come most of the request is not related with the requirement?
A: Ehem... Customer satisfaction.. remember?

Q: So what shall I do?
A: Get your ass started, hurry up!!.. :(

What was the song that makes me feeling melancholic,
dazzling lights that return me to innocence once more.
I've caught the sensation that came out from your aroma,
which reminds me of my past, and present, but not from future,
The dream is out of reach.
Yet we're hanging onto it, and fall back.
Even when we're back together in the past but speechless.
We've forgotten the feeling we've used to be.
Pure and yet innocent, warmth of hearts,
and the tree we used to dance round and round.

Falling deeply... into the world of reminiscent of the past.

Planning -> Prototyping -> Requirement -> Design -> Coding -> Testing -> Post Mortem...

Can I simplify the process?
A lot of documentation need to be done leh...

And people said they are needed by company's process.
I think it's true,
but the time given are too short la...

And yea... ~~~

"Happy Anniversay~" to all my same batch colleagues... :))