I'm not that kind of person that would attract other people instantly. Even I would, the next moment when I open my mouth and voice out my opinion, they would think how naive and childish I am. Once, my friend told me before about this as well. But I didn't agree on the spot. I neglected his opinion.

I'm scare of people not giving me chance to voice out my opinion. Scared of being crowned with the title immature. I spoke louder then others when I feel I'm losing the chance. I wanted to grab attention.

That is the part where I couldn't move on with myself. I'm still in identity confusion.

I'm delusional, or just another hypocrite or ass hole.

Walking the path of demise, the nightmare never ends.
I shivered but stared motionless into the dark space.

A step closer to our goal:

• stop procrastinating (eg: stop Facebook)
• move forward by picking something to do
• do not hesitate in making a choice (do it first and carry on post mortem later)

昙花一现的幸福，
渐渐地，满满地剥落，
我看见了黑暗的自己。

Traditional Japanese Business Management Systems

http://ezinearticles.com/?Traditional-Japanese-Business-Management-Systems&id=2537288

言行不一，狗屁不通。
绝不做吊儿郎当，
随波逐流的浪子。

思緒不停在徘徊著，
兜兜轉轉又回到了起點。

暫時歡迎你回來，
因爲我知道你又會在次奔跑出走的。

你找回自己了嗎？

Sorry for doing nothing.
I'm not quite sure which path will lead to your heart.

心裏很難受。

不是爲了趕上別人而強迫自己跑得更遠，
而是應該要奠定了基礎，
衡量個人需求能力后再決定是不是自己想要的終點。

得到你的認同和贊許，
心理飄飄然地，默默地感到高興。
希望你那不是一時閒的情感而流露的謊言。

Convocation 2011

It has been 3 years since I graduated.
And it's now my brother's turn..
The photography session took about 800+rm and the worst thing is: we've been cheated.
So isn't that anyone with surname Gan lack with this kind of awareness?
Or we're merely pure hearted people in this world? *wink*

心里像针般刺痛

无所事事的当儿，又可以做些什么呢？
就干脆继续无所事事吧。。

我相信。

杂乱无章的思绪，
懊恼着每天做过的错事而愧疚。

心里就是等了一会儿过后，
才发觉到自己是多么的幼稚。

发飚了，什么都没有了，
空虚感却迎面而来。

是心病吗？

今天回家中，车子不争气地发出了类似生锈摩擦的声音，
真是有惊无险，距离拿新车的日子还有一个月，
拜托你不要搞什么毛病哟。

然后放心，我会慢慢的驾驶，
到你离我而去的那一天。

原本的贷款还没还清，新的贷款又来到，
结果现在距离目标要买屋的日子却遥遥无期。
怎办？

It's All a Matter of Perspective.

"This escalated their already negative reactions, compromising their ability to think clearly. At this point they were each convinced that the other guy really was the cause of his difficulties. After all, he was making him do this or feel that. The idea that both of them -- not one or the other of them -- might be contributing to the difficulties never sprang to mind, although it did occurs to others."

Resilience

• ability to withstand or to recover quickly from difficult conditions.
• ability to recoil or spring back into shape after bending, stretching, or being decompressed.
• (in psychology) positive capacity of people to cope with stress and adversity.
  

回家好

饿了，就去填饱肚子；
脚累了，就停下来看看身边的东西；
原来我在福冈的生活也和家乡没有两样。
当别人问起我在日本好吗的时候，
我会毫不犹豫的对他说：
还是回家好。