I cares, thus I wanted you to turn out what I want you to be?

Design for today:

Design of the day:

Work of the day:
Design referred from: ISO50, Tycho

Design of the day:

My work for today:

The new released Ayumi album, featuring previously released Singles Glitter/Fated on July 18 07. The tracks:

1. "Mirror" - 1:58
2. "(don't) Leave me alone" - 4:18
3. "talkin' 2 myself" - 4:56
4. "decision" - 4:22
5. "Guilty" - 4:35
6. "fated" - 5:36
7. "Together When..." - 5:14
8. "Marionette -prelude-" - 1:15
9. "Marionette" - 4:37
10. "The Judgement Day" - 1:41
11. "glitter" - 4:55
12. "My All" - 5:27
13. "reBirth" - 1:40
14. untitled ～for her～" - 5:35

p/s: haven't download the album yet since I'm 'outstation' doing my training. Hopes to listen to the tracks soon..

"Lose one friend. Lose all friends. Lose yourself."
— Eric Matthews, Boy Meets World

What if you've lose your senses? Your eyes whereby you can't see, your ears that you can't hear people's talking, and you can't feel other's touch that you've lost your motor senses?
But the thing you can't afford to lose is what you feel.

It is vital that what your heart told you, and you've made your decision to do so.
(rather on wiki: inductive reasoning, said the Oracle: You've made the choice, don't you? *That always means, you've made the choice all the time before you realize it, and you need other people to support you to make the decision*)

The effect of what you feel is greater than what you merely observed. 《攻心为上》

“我死后，你会参加我的葬礼吗？”

Forget about it ba..
Let it be done, in natural way.

The world is collapsing, trembling with utmost fears.
While I can't find a place to hide.
Ironic, isn't it?

Love is consists of Passion, Intimacy and Commitment, but what I feel?

Do you know the feeling when searching for your heart and didn't find any of my footsteps in any part of it? Do you know when I started to feel while you're getting colder and colder like the frozen ice? Never mention about your feeling, never talk about your recent activities, and then what I'm communicate for?

Maybe this is what i deserve after what you've been through these. I'm following your footsteps.

Your heart container is empty. While I'm shredded into pieces of nothingness.

Love is hard. I understand now.
















...


fears..

fears..

and fears..


and I'm in tears.. blues everywhere..
Meaningless without u.

Thank you for the anniversary, thank you for everything..
You're not teaching me these days, you're planting the heart which grown into ...

blossoms of flowers..
full of flowers..

just that the autumn comes.. late for it to blossom..

依恋，和眷恋不一样。
依恋，是依靠着的爱情，需要着支柱来呼吸新鲜空气，
到哪里都会跟到哪里，形影不离。
缺乏了另一方，都不行。

现实就是和所想象的，相差好远，好远。。
人变了，有些变得，很恐怖，有些，还保持在梦想世界，
和现实中，还保持着一段的距离。
我应该是在正中央吧，我想。
任何一方，都容纳不下我。
应该我是一个不配有情感的动物吧。

还是那一句：
一路，就是一步一步走下去！
绝对的一步一步！

not online for a month more, training,
anything please email to my gmail.

Perm my hair for a little brown, it's almost nothing, haha.. updates next time..
*sigh*, working working working~

You have no right to blame others because what ppl's doing is the exactly what your doing. Ppl exist for co-interact and taking care of each other. So, what's the matter? OK? No more complain!

Ok, three weeks have passed and I really have a *nice *nice company. Stupid company. WTF CCB KNN. *FIghTing MoRe 4 MoRe CoMpLeXxiTiieee, Sln said: The society will process you and you'll undergo the refinery process.. oops, not the refinery process but shd be the ugly process to the reality ok, Ivan, no more dreams! awake! AWAKE** Haha, so nice I'm still sleeping everyday nice bcoz nid to wake up every morning, else I'll become walking-dead, a real zombie.

Still have 2 months and a half to go~