奈何不了的现实，就以不智者继续活下去。

不闻不问，不应不答，不理不睬。

The more you lived, the less you would feel excited about life. Keep excitement going on and love what you living for.

Sometimes we don't even know we are the one who're pulling the strings like unintended without realising it causes fluctuation around you. Or maybe you're the one who tripped over the strings and wham the shit out of everyone.

Checklist for this coming November & December:
- Fallout 4
- Starcraft II Legacy of the Void
- Need for Speed (reboot)
- Hunger Games Mockingjay part 2
- Star Wars: The Force Awakens

When you thought one single module like Login/Register could be easy, it is actually not, dependency: authentication method, DB setup, backend handling, JSON, token/cookies/session, connection handling, UI handling & animation.

There is one day, you did told me to upgrade and enhance my wisdom; instead of focusing of nonsense stuff. And the world isn't about these things. But another day, you're telling me to try on these again. So, is that the real you, or it supposed to be like that? Carry on and flow with the current?

http://25.109.45.160:9091/transmission/web/

raspberry pi :/

We are having this dilemma, it is easy to create a common enemy to unite all, it is easy too to swirl away the supports by using religion as weapon; so when people are confused, so they just let it be. No change. If you asked me, I'm pretty scared of change too.

States of fear.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Military%E2%80%93industrial_complex
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Politico-media_complex

As you garners more control, as it may seemed; it is actually pushing the other way around. And thing falters quickly beyond grasp when you hold things too tightly, like sand, and loses over the state of equilibrium, creating imbalance over the entire system.

Project:

Back then in Human Development course,
there is a stage of life where you get identity confusion,
some people will go travel to find back themselves,
it doesn't happen within timeframe of 13 - 19 years old,
there are a few times when this will happen in one's life,
for example like after graduation, or after working for a few years,
you starts to question about the purpose of life, and tidy back your rationale behind the meaning of life.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Erikson's_stages_of_psychosocial_development

以前，看一本书或看一篇文章，你会领悟到这一点；
十年后，你会领悟到的和以前的那个点有所不同。
到底是你成长了，还是你变了？

Is there a limit towards any challenge you faced? How would you define it as a real challenge?

Yes, it is hard to set a certain threshold and follow the routine you planned repetitively, but without it the bar height will fall lower and lower and gradually follows the way you planned it, no expectation at all. While on the other hand, having a strict routine causes you to lose your enthusiasm as you're bounded by the rules you set, you feel challenged, limited by protocols and in repeating manner for each and every cycles before starting to get bored.

How to balance it? You define it.

"We would think that the choices we make now is what would be best for the future, yet in the end we will need to adhere to circumstances when things went south. And we told ourselves, this was the path we chose, there's no turning back, next thing we know, we let regret defines us.

I was reluctant to plan for the future because I do not trust myself to live that long. I have let my youth slipped in exchange for the unnecessaries. And I felt it diminishing as we speak, yet I'm too far down the road to turn back. Time is tickling. I guess that's it.

My worldview is bleak, I know. But nobody's perfect."

-- Christopher Caine

(1) Propose a philosophy of life and MAKE people AGREE with you, thus feeling self contented.
(2) Make NO CHANGE in life, putting EXCUSES, and let day passes.
(3) Expect others RESPECTING YOU first while you show no gratitude to what others has made for you.
(4) Share quote posts in FB, and assume you HAVE changed.

很多时候，最讨厌的一些东西，
往往是自己哪片黑色地带，
还有自己不足的地方。

Once, there is time I fear about something; and I would be taking an escape route or just ignore it.
It is different now.
I will be facing it, tackling the problem or embracing it like a man.

Otherwise, problem keep haunting you back.
And you will never learn.

人，總會越活越懊惱，
越結越多的枷鎖，
捆綁著自己，
痛也痛得死去活來。

當東西越變越複雜的時候，
試想想當初是怎樣：
沒有多餘的規則，
怎樣都不由經意的禮讓，
一切就是那麼的簡單。

黑色情人節快樂，
了解雙方過去的黑色地帶，
相對互補不足的日子。

思绪中，我找不到属于自己的回忆。

只是片片模糊的记忆。

我已经忘了，那是什么。

矛盾中有矛盾的活着，

矛盾的学习着，

也让自己继续毫无头绪地随波逐流。

想不再逃避自己，

想不让时间蹉跎，

找回属于自己的道路，小步也好，迈步前进。

对得起，对不起，

已经不重要了。

You finds all hostility, gossips, and the never ending judgement from others,
but there is always a cube of sugar that stands in the middle of bitterness.

Be you, and only you.