P@n@s0nic's {Pr!)_(M} working lifestyle is this:
- You'll get a flexible timetable arrangement, but normally you won't because the deadline are strict
- It's quite stress working under the deadlines (maybe depending on the project/s)
- The working environment is not that friendly as it seemed (every company do have politics rite?) Okie... I was wrong... They are friendly... I think too much.
- We can learn a lot here compared to other company "In Malaysia"
- It's a bit stress because it is Jpn3s3 company? Normally all the companies have stress, not just PRD
- Now if I'm under contract, I can't claim OT allowance, but the project does need me for OT, is that a contradict? Does it means I *don't really have to OT for my project?*, normally under strict deadlines, and again, you won't do that..
- Me and other colleagues are fine, (especially with same gang), but for those I'm anti.. then soli la.. You all sucks, stupid, brainless and selfish. Most ppl who study with first class grade are selfish rite? Lolx... I gotta rephrase this... after 2 months of working... changed my perspective.

What did I studied and still studying?
- CMMI model, important for deciding a company's success or failure (CMMI = Capability Maturing Model Integration) and continuous process.
- Process Training, introduced the organisation's process and the protocols.
- C#.NET training and framework study.
- UML training.
- Coding design and pattern and applications.

Something extra:
- Relationship handling
- Stress handling.
- Colleague's relationship handling. (you'll face them... all the time, if minus the sleep time, is almost 2/3 of all the time)
- Time management.
- Misc (Something related to relationships, friends, item list, house keeping, and others)

ANd yea.. Sorry ya.. sorrie to keep u worry and worry. I'll try to learn how to manage myself better coz I looks weak outside,.. and inside too. If we have the time we'll go to somewhere nice k? Away from work, away from stress and away from sadness. Cheer up ^_^

Miss the days when we were yum-cha-ing in VGN
Miss the days when we were going out having fun in Melacca
Miss the days when we went to Havana cafe
Miss the days when we having exams and stress of non-stop assignments
Miss the days when we were talking gossips
Miss the days when we were doing activities together,
buying stuffs, complaining this or that, pushing responsibilities..
Miss the days when we went traveling together
Miss the days when we were having dinner together
Miss the days when we rushed for Sushi-King Promotions
Miss the days.. and

Miss you all, guys and gals...

I knew the feeling now.
This is the feeling when I said something cruel to you.
It's the same feeling when you're being exiled and stayed alone.. helpless..
I'm sorry... for making the mistake, again and again.
I'm self-less.

Thank you for being understanding.

Something is hard and I couldn't possible accept it at one time,
I think I should throw away those pieces of burden,
one piece by one piece,
I just couldn't possibly take all of them in such instance.
Please give me some time to let go.

Probably some day..
Maybe it'll exist, someday..

Am I avoiding the possibility of it?

I'm not sure.
I just hope,
maybe one day, u'll be better.
maybe one day, u'll be the original self.

I don't want to become self-less.
I'm me,
remember?

Sometimes,
the hatred is advancing,
the love is deteriorating,
sometimes the hatred become love,
and love become hatred,
I'm not taking everything for granted,
and everything should be granted as I wish,
but I didn't urge or push it,
I just simply make an excuse and
say: It's the way it should be.

Is it?

I'm selfless.

You are yourself.

You didn't change at all,
since the first day I knew you.

I wanted to be better.

I wanted yourself to be better.

We're maintaining.
It's not a burden anymore,
we changed.

It's not a burden, it's something else.
When it's something else, I'm happy,
if it's not, I'll be sad,
it's not the simple equation anymore,
it's complex.

It's hard.

And I'm selfless.

Have been working for 1 week in Panasonic now...
quite boring actually,
but somehow I managed to sneak into conversation with colleagues.
Now undergo training.

Weekend spent my time at Wangsa Maju->
I can't believe I did travel from Equine to Wangsa Maju
My travelling started from:
__--> Equine -> SK -> Sungai Besi -> MRR2 -> Wangsa Maju (yay)

This week started the C# programming training ^_^

Long time din blogging until these few days...

Just back from_______ Japan!!!
Yea.. JAPAN!!!
I was so happy~... (although my face seemed motionless)

How was it? how was it?____ ->standard answer--->
The people are nice___ Just as what you watched in drama (seriously)
The food are superb___ Compared to HL milk in Malaysia makes u feeling vomit when u think of it..
The food are superb X 1000___ when you're back to Malaysia U won't go sushi king anymore...
The places are beautiful and gorgeous!!!___ clean and beautiful.. just like when you're back from Singapore to Johor Kastam, you'll see a lot (realll a lot) of garbages and black black spot... (?oil ink?)
The places i went are: Hekinan - Aichi, Oosaka, Kyoto, Nara.
Too bad I bought too few souvenir for you all.. I jus got 1/10 of the travel trip for shopping...
Gomen, gomen... seriously..

Now -> I'm working in Panasonic R&D Center in Cyberjaya...
Cyberjaya...
It's a piece of desert...
And cyberia,
it's a glass of water...
when you go there,
you need the glass of water in the desert...

But,
I've chosed Equine to stay.. lolx..
Cheaper,
I won't need to find the singleroom tat hard.. stupid cyberjaya market..
it's not an intellect city, it's the DOOMED TOMB, a dead city...
it's good that there is still have a Jusco... beside Equine...

WISH LIST:
PSP Slim/NDSL
Laptop VAIO Sony 11 hrs mode
Scholarship for Master in Japan
Passes my JLPT 2
Get a hybrid car... (stupid government shouldn't put HIGH tax on it.. said it only required rm20 for a week)
Get a cozy house staying with loved 1
A good and nice nice loved 1 (lolx)

"Quoted..."

U are not being childish...U are just in the process of learning..As long as we are willing to put some effort,,one by one,,bit by bit,,no one can say u are childish...Because u understand urself more than other ppl understand you,,,Because u know u did learn from the past....A lot of ppl in this world love you.

dont let a destructive criticism bring you down,,because i know clearly that criticism is not worth your time to think of it...

Love, is where u can shine....Its where ur shines will be appreciated...

hope u are willing to read what i wrote for you...

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We're born to suffer, we're born to love, we're in one unity.

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Shaping my thinking a bit...
I'm wrong,
I'm wrong,
I'm wrong...

After I've shouted for three times,
I'm still wrong.

I saw the dreamer's garden in front of me and..
I don't hesitate anymore and jump into the world,
that is not the real world neither.

I'm still wandering inside,
and I don't want to come out, and
I'm still wrong.

My eyes caught something,
that was a rabbit wearing glasses inside the garden jumping towards the black castle,
I followed.
I'm still wrong.

The rabbit turn around and to my utmost dispair,
I saw myself.
I'm my nightmare. And I'm wrong, in the end.

Shouldn't I care more?
Give in something, you'll obtain nothing.
Care for not only yourself, but within the border.
What is true and what is false.
You'll know some time...

I'm correct.

難過。。
在盡頭裏茫然不知所措？！

恐怕。。

畢業，畢業。。
我能夠畢業嗎？
哈哈。。還不知道。

還真的有點想念大學生活呢。不知不覺地五年限期一過，現在踏入的，是真真正正的社會。什麽是社會？就是只有工作，工作，工作。
也許也有身邊的一些朋友。。都不多了。

想念，可以對嘴的生活，可以和我吵架，爭論，開玩笑。。。
爭吵中還有一班朋友的貼心和支持。。
我會哭嗎？
可是進入社會的我會變成什麽呢？不懂
我還是小孩子般的想法吧。。
一路去追，那現實無法掌握的夢想，
願天上還是佈滿星星，
而你我還是永不改變追逐著那月亮的背影。

     路 - 梁靜茹

     回頭看來時的路　總有些複雜感觸
    我們走的那麼辛苦
    好不容易才到這地步

  ＊不被了解的痛楚　到不了愛的淨土
    是你讓我越過衝突　陪我走過
    風雨險阻這一段路

  ＃如果開始就能看見幸福
    不在別人眼光耳語中迷路
    或許我不能　把愛看清楚
    想把你的手牢牢握住

  ＋如果這是通往愛的旅途
    也許過程注定要荊棘密佈
    但我不後悔　選擇這條路
    你的愛讓我深深體會
    〔活著的感觸〕

    重唱　＊,＃,＋

    有時我不願回頭看　一路太多眼淚混亂
    幸好有你　我才變得勇敢

    重唱　＃,＋

    我從不後悔選擇這條路
    因為你的愛讓我看見　活著的幸福

總在深夜裏想著有的沒的。。
想必這是我最彷徨無助的時候吧。。
final year project deadline近了，
每天都忙到六點多呢。
加油咯。

The fate where everyone can't be denied,
the road that we must travel,
and the destiny we all end up to.

It's time.

Melting heart...

Love like tat won't exists... in reality...
What were you expecting?

Deja vu, again.

I caught the sensation of my presense here, once before, before the very eyes of 21 century, before everything existed, before there's a definition for exist.

There's another life exists in my dream. I'm wandering.
I've been through many lifes, cycles.. I realized. I don't belongs to here..
It was so alien to me, and yet.. I'm feeling.. rather comfortable..

Can't remember how it happened, still, it happened.
It happened when the blossom of flowers shattered, flew through the flow of winds.
I glimpsed, took a deep breath, and followed through the silhoutte of the petals..
that flew towards your shadow.

I was left behind...

故事分享- 平等的愛

很久以前，在以色列地發生了以下一段故事：

某年某月某日政府在翻新穀倉的時候，發現牆角有一個老鼠洞。

於是眾人用煙薰入其內，希望逼使裡面的老鼠出來。

待了一會，只見老鼠一列二三四五六七的逃竄出來。

眾人正忖度大概已經走得清光，可以上前打掃之際，

卻見有兩隻老鼠仍在洞口處推擠逼碰，然後再幾經辛苦，雙雙才出得了來。

可是很奇怪，兩隻老鼠出了洞口以後，卻不立時逃走，

而是在洞口附近團團轉的互相追趕，像是要咬對方的尾巴似的。

眾人都希奇是什麼緣故，於是走上前去細看，這才發現 ~

原來其中一隻老鼠是瞎眼的，看不見東西的，

而另一隻老鼠正設法使對方咬著自己的尾巴，然後帶領同伴一起逃走。

眾人見狀，都默然不語，各自陷進了沉思當中。吃飯的時候，眾人又圍著坐下，有人開始討論剛才的兩隻老鼠。

嚴肅的羅馬官長說：『我認為剛才的兩隻老鼠是君臣主僕的關係。』

眾人思考一會後，都說：『原來如此』。

於是羅馬官兵擺出一副高傲孤芳的模樣。

聰明的以色列人說：『我認為剛才的兩隻老鼠是夫婦的關系。』

眾人又思考了一會，覺得不錯，連聲稱是，於是以色列人變成了一副飄飄然得意的嘴臉。

強調孝義的中國人說：『我認為剛才的兩隻老鼠是母子的關係。』

眾人又思考了一會，更覺合理，又都連聲稱讚，於是中國人的臉上立時堆滿了專業的謙虛。

呆頭呆腦的撒瑪利亞人，卻蹲在地上雙手托著下巴，呆呆的望著眾人，

問道：『為什麼兩隻老鼠一定要有什麼關係呢？』

空氣在剎那之間靜止凝固了。



眾人呆呆的望著這個呆呆的撒瑪利亞人，不發一語。

卻見先前說話的羅馬官長、以色列人和中國人都臉有慚色地低下頭不敢作聲。

愛，原來不是建基於利益、情義和血緣的關係上，而是需要建基於「即使沒有任何關係」。



沒有伴侶的時候，即使是孤單，也可以很快樂，

你可以一個人走遍世界，結識不同的朋友，
你也可以選擇下班之後，立刻回到家裡享受自己的世界，
這個時候，孤單是一種境界。

一個人的孤單，並不可怕
最可怕的是，有了伴侶以後的那份孤單!

假如你一個人，你用不著再向他交代行蹤
你無須再逼自己和他一起成長或不成長
你不必再聽他嘮叨，不用再遷就他，也不用再向他說甜言蜜語

雖是如此，你卻有太多的理由不能離開他
你不忍心讓他孤單，不如你自己孤單好了

原來，所有的責任．感情．承諾．道德．傳統．忍耐，都是孤單的源頭
孤單不是與生俱來，而是由你關心人的那一刻開始!

霎那閒，我詛咒了每一個人，每一件事，和令我可恨的及不爽的東西，
時間流逝，過去不再，
看到了現在的倉傷和沒落，我又得到了什麽？

高興？失望？還是在笑著過去的我？

Low Life... High Life...
People are living their life,
with respective uniqueness, with own likings,
who cares~

Argument 1: You are very cheap.
Are you?

This is the stupid passport that took me a lot of troubles...
Cheers for Malaysian Services~

也許，喜歡一個人，真的很難吧。
喜歡他，也許他不會喜歡你。（單戀）
喜歡他，也許他不懂你喜歡他。（暗戀）
喜歡他，可是他不懂怎麽愛。（單純の戀）
喜歡他，可是他喜歡另一個。（三角の戀）。。

接受你的結果，也並不一定很好，
他接受你，可是性格不配。
他接受你，也許往後的日子感情會越變越干沽。。

分手的理由有很多，可是在一起並不需要理由。

並要：
互相信任和包容，
不屈困難愛對方，
不向外來力量低頭，
接受對方的缺點，
提醒對方改正缺點，
接受對方的交友圈子，
甜蜜時要一定有甜蜜時光，
認真時偶爾要有幽默成分，
讓時間肯定，不讓時間牽著走，不讓時間使感情乾枯。
愛情並不是永遠第一，可是要把對方放在心上。

雖然一切從開始就困難重重，加油吧。