思绪中，我找不到属于自己的回忆。

只是片片模糊的记忆。

我已经忘了，那是什么。

矛盾中有矛盾的活着，

矛盾的学习着，

也让自己继续毫无头绪地随波逐流。

想不再逃避自己，

想不让时间蹉跎，

找回属于自己的道路，小步也好，迈步前进。

对得起，对不起，

已经不重要了。

You finds all hostility, gossips, and the never ending judgement from others,
but there is always a cube of sugar that stands in the middle of bitterness.

Be you, and only you.

We Remain.

Happy 2015.

Revisiting the darkest area in you.
Until you could balance and control it.

- Ask stupid question and you will get stupid answer, or none at all.
- Occam's razor theory, believe in something which looked most obvious to you. On the other hand, simplify things without over-complicating it..

当我们撕烂脸皮做人时，
什么屁朋友都不是。

In the midst of deadlock of heated argument, just retract back and say: it is just a matter of opinion.

"When I’ve plucked this rose, 
I can’t make it grow again; 
it will have no choice but to wither and die."

1. Do not feel over sensitive over how people look at you, express yourself.
2. Appreciate.
3. Try not to start your chat with "I".
4. Experience new things.

http://waywayforward.wordpress.com/2013/10/08/近代以色列的立国/

Perseverance as the way of life.

You made your first advancement, I retracted one step,
instead hoping you would keep moving on;
while I made a silent move towards you, and you were appalled..
and escaped into the place where you belong to.

这是自我理想而制造出来的潜意识幻觉而已。

I think of you

I haven't slept

I think I do

But I don't forget

My body moves

Goes where I will

But though I try my heart stays still

It never moves

Just won't be left

And so my mouth waters to be a fate

And you're always in my head

You're always in my head

You're always in my head

You're always in my head

You're always in my head

Always in my head

Always in my

This, I guess

Is to tell you you're choosing out from the rest

You’ve come so close to tasting

Now my innocence is breaking

Like the ocean in a perfect storm

It makes me want you even more

I’ve never been so jealous

I’ve never felt so helpless

So out of breath and hungry for you

You got into my swirl of vortex, found nothing but pain.

"But we have soothed ourselves into imagining sudden change as something that happens outside the normal order of things. An accident, like a car crash. Or beyond our control, like a fatal illness. We do not conceive of sudden, radical, irrational change as built into the very fabric of existence. Yet it is."

Jurassic Park - Third Iteration "Breeding Sites"

"Oh what good is it to live
With nothing left to give
Forget but not forgive
Not loving all you see."
-- Swallowed in the Sea / Coldplay

Don't keel over now.

Quoted:
"When we had a long time relationship, we tends to find lacks of each other."
"Because you can't get what you want?"